This week has been tough, both physically and mentally. Who knew being on vacation would take such a toll. While juggling Passover Seders, working out and just basic day to day stuff my nutrition lacked. Although, I have really tried to stay on track. And who would've thought not working out for 4 days would have such an impact...
So I've been tossing around in my head for a week or so about increasing the workouts from 3 to 4 (and if I get adventurous 5) days a week. I inquired with one of the trainers and was told it was up to me but I would see more improvement increasing the workouts. So, today I forked over the money for another month. After all, it's pay day better give that check now rather than later - LOL!
See, I really want to achieve all my goals and dreams and not have to say NO when someone asks me to do something because I'm not in shape or I can't keep up. I want to be able to say to YES let's go and do it!
The workouts yesterday and today were more than hard! They definitely challenged and pushed me. Yesterday's workout worked the entire body. Today's workout worked my arms. But the other thing today's did was challenge me on my fear of heights. I know that box is probably only about 2 feet tall but it's the scariest 2 feet in the world to me. It is such a mental challenge for me and at one point I just wanted to cry and had to tell myself I can do this and not let it get to me. I have to tune everyone out. For most people this would be nothing and so simple but for me it's just so hard to get up that high. It might as well be 50 stories high. And yes, I noticed the taller box was snuck in on me today. I didn't complain although I'm sure I gave some evil looks well maybe I did complain - LOL!
So while today I think I made good choices and decisions regarding this CrossFit the fear of the unknown still lingers in my mind and causes me doubts. But I'm going to have faith that I'm doing the right thing. It's just hard when you run up against someone who says "oh you're doing that" or "oh you're one of those". My guess is CrossFit doesn't have a good reputation among some folks but when I do hear the negativity it's always folks complaining that they know someone and it changed them and they were always doing CrossFit. Well, it does change you and I've seen it in myself. I actually see where I have some confidence I didn't have before. Even if I don't see the physical changes such as the weight loss or getting better at the workouts I know mentally it has made me more positive and more eager to achieve my goals. I just have to give myself time. Personally, I think everyone should find what works for them. For some like me, it's CrossFit, others it's a traditional gym, yoga, being on a treadmill or elliptical. If it works for someone then do it. We're all different so we're all going to like different things. This just happens to be what is working or hopefully working for me right now in my life.
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