Snapping

Took a little break from writing over here.  It's been a rough several weeks for me emotionally and I think it all came to a head last night for me emotionally.  Working out twice a day is helping me immensely in some ways but in other ways I'm struggling.  I love getting into the gym and working out and the motivation I feel from others is great.  But then when I go back for the second workout I feel a disconnect.  I've started to feel lost and like I'm not really there with everyone and I miss that feeling of how we all encourage each other.  I know I have to do things on my own and in my lifetime I have learned to do that.  But I feel like I don't get to share in everyone else's accomplishments as well.  I feel like I've put myself in time out and last night all those emotions came over me all at once.  And no matter how much I tried to shove those emotions back they came out and I snapped.  I feel so guilty for snapping on my coach.  It's not his fault because he is trying to help me.  My snapping had nothing to do with him and I knew that and yet I still took it out on him.  I need to work this out and learn to put everyone else out of my mind and just focus on my goals.  I hate snapping on anyone especially someone who's gone out of his way to help me.