Clean 4×4 80% - 70lbs.
Annie
50-40-30-20-10 reps, for time of: 23:42- Double Under - Single Jump Ropes - 100-80-60-40-20
- Sit-up (abmat)
This is going to be one of those blogs that if you're a coach and especially one of mine you may want to close out and not read this one in fact I highly recommend doing so. But if you insist as I always ask please remember this is my place to vent and have any pity parties I want and work through the frustrations I have that come from this thing called CrossFit.
I hate jump ropes. And clearly my coach tonight knows that too as he was just waiting on my comment about them before the WOD. Now, if he only knew how much I really wish I could jump rope. I don't enjoy that I suck at them. I started off okay and even did 20 in a row in the beginning. At that point I had some hope. But then I began not even being able to do 1 jump rope and the hope started to fade. I tried to stay focused. Every time I had to start over I was telling myself "I could do this". I wanted to do them and was shooting for 15 minutes but I was a long way from that goal. Then there comes my frustration that the coach doesn't want to deal with so he tunes me out and then I tune him out. Sometimes that can be quite comical but now it just makes me want to give up. I'm not mad at my coach but sometimes I just wish he had some of the compassion a few of the other coaches have. The others know how to get me through the jump ropes without really saying a whole lot. I don't enjoy finishing 10+ minutes after everyone else. I hate that people have to wait on me to get through especially the coach. I tried to close my eyes and not focus on that but it's just so hard. I was in tears and thank goodness for sweat because they help mask the tears. But when I got in the car it was all over with.
I hate when my frustration gets the best of me. I have no idea how to hide it. I wanted to toss that jump rope across the room and walk out. I really don't know how I stuck it out but I definitely did not feel accomplished when I was done. I was out of breath and barely able to move I was so exhausted. If I could have just curled up in a ball in a corner I would have.
I didn't post this last night due to my feelings. So today, as I look back on last night's WOD I still have tears. Tears of still struggling with those jump ropes and lifts. Tears that I hold everyone else up. Tears that my frustration gets the best of me. Tears of fear that I'll never get faster. Tears that really want everyone to know how badly I want to improve especially my coaches.
I struggle with the nutrition but when I look at what I've eaten this month I've done really good in my opinion with the exception of 3 meals. Not 3 days or 3 weeks of eating bad but only 3 meals that were bad for the month. I just hope the scale and measuring tape show the same results because if not I think it's time to reevaluate this nutrition plan and find something that works.
I didn't post this last night due to my feelings. So today, as I look back on last night's WOD I still have tears. Tears of still struggling with those jump ropes and lifts. Tears that I hold everyone else up. Tears that my frustration gets the best of me. Tears of fear that I'll never get faster. Tears that really want everyone to know how badly I want to improve especially my coaches.
I struggle with the nutrition but when I look at what I've eaten this month I've done really good in my opinion with the exception of 3 meals. Not 3 days or 3 weeks of eating bad but only 3 meals that were bad for the month. I just hope the scale and measuring tape show the same results because if not I think it's time to reevaluate this nutrition plan and find something that works.
