Reality check!

I really don't like the row machine.  I just hate rowing!  And those 2,000 meters seemed like they would never get there.  I know it works many muscles and is good for you.  And it doesn't help that I always seem to come out of my shoes for some reason - LOL!  Oh well, I'll still continue to do it when I have to.   

To my surprise I felt like my coach was lightening up on me tonight.  He still pushed me to do better but I'm not so sure if he was showing a sympathetic side to himself.  Well, don't tell him that ;-)

I'm finally realizing and accepting that I just can't keep up with everyone else.  I'm not happy about it but it is reality.  But I am determined to continue to improve and do better.  I really do want to get to a point where all the exercises aren't cut for me.  I do understand why (even though it has taken me a long time to finally come to this realization) my exercises are cut.  I've just been kicking and digging my heels in about it.  Reality sucks but I can't live in a fantasy world! 

I think I'm doing okay on the nutrition.  I think I've missed a few carbs here and there but I'm definitely getting my protein.  Going to try a new flavor of the protein shake.  Went with vanilla.  I guess I could put any fruit with it.  I'm just getting a little burned out on the strawberry. 

To my surprise I haven't had coffee in almost 2 weeks and I haven't missed it as much as I thought it would.  I think I'm just going to make coffee my weekend treat when I have time to actually make a real breakfast.  I just don't have time during the week.  Lunch is pretty easy to eat right.  Dinner is harder though when I go workout.  I'm just not hungry when I get home but I need to eat so I make myself eat right.  I'm probably the worst at snacks.  I get them in most of the time but admittedly have missed one here and there. 

So I'll just keep moving forward and keep trying.  Most important thing to me though is to continue to improve on my exercises and continue on my path to getting healthy and in shape.  What started out as strictly wanting to lose weight is no longer.  I want my healthy lifestyle.  I want to be able to do all those things on my list and more that haven't even made it to my list. 

I'm excited to see what the next month brings because this past 7 weeks has been a roller coaster ride but I proved something to myself and that is I can and will stick with this and accomplish my goal.  And even once I do accomplish my goal I'm not going to stop.  I want to keep it up.  I don't want to quit!  I have a great group of people around me.  These are strong, confident people and they give off great energy.  Everyone should be around people like this.