After a sleepless night and all kinds of thoughts wandering through my head I finally got up this morning even more committed to making this lifestyle change. I find myself saying this more than I do losing weight lately. I think this a good thing. I tossed and turned over my fears and thinking how and what can I do to conquer these fears especially, my fear of heights.
But another thing that had me thinking was how supportive the folks at CF are. Yesterday, I got to work out with folks I usually only get to see in passing and it made for a great time. Now, I'm not thrilled when the classes are too packed but it is nice to have others to workout with rather than be the only one at times. It's a nice balance for me.
One of the gals came to meet up with me as I was finishing my last run. That is just amazing to me how these folks are so supportive and encouraging. I know I fall short in that area because I'm usually last to finish so I'm not being the one giving support. I try my hardest to be conscious of trying to say things to others while doing the workout but admittedly fall short of doing so. I need to work harder on that.
I wasn't brought up to ask for help or lean on anyone. I'm supposed to be completely and totally independent. As for asking for help it is a sign of weakness, after all.
Not sure what is in store for tonight's workout but I'm determined to give it all I got! And one day all these mental boundaries will go away. Just keep chipping away at them as I do the weight one day at a time and one step at a time.
No comments:
Post a Comment