Fran is gruesome and relentless!

Tonight's workout was gruesome!  I don't know who had an ex by the name of Fran but they really didn't leave on good terms and I guess they decided to describe what they thought of her with this workout.  And guys wonder why us gals put them through hell - LOL! 

I was able to go to the 5:30 class and it was so good to workout with folks I only get to see in passing.  I've decided Jim is the "evil" trainer, Jeremiah is the "nightmare" trainer.  Haven't come up with a name for Jessica yet but I will.  Jim pushes the hardest and I need that.  The pushing makes me work harder normally.  Jeremiah and Jessica don't push as hard.  Don't get me wrong they are all very encouraging and are awesome.  They just have their different styles and it's nice to have that variety.  Bottom line is I need to depend on myself and not the trainers to push me. 

But at one point tonight I had a mental breakdown in my head.  I want so badly to conquer those heights and just seeing those boxes be put in place all of a sudden had a strangle hold on me.  I had to step back and just breathe.  I felt bad as someone I just met was trying to talk to me and I was trying to hold down a conversation and still not let her know how bad I was panicking inside.  I finally gathered myself and sucked up all the courage I had only to find out I wasn't going to have to climb on the boxes after all and just do ring pull ups instead of jumping pull ups.  Part of me was relieved and another part of me was disappointed because I really want to face my fears.  I just went with what the trainer told me to do at that point. 

I do know I need to figure out how to work this pulled muscle out of my right leg/knee.  It's been bothering me since Sat.  I don't know if I just pulled or twisted something.  It hurts to bend it but when I exercise it doesn't hurt.  I know I haven't done anything major to I just need to figure out how to work it out.  I guess I should speak up and say something to whoever is coaching but I forget when I'm moving around.  But sitting here I can feel the pain and when I go to walk from one room to another I feel the pain when I stand up.  I don't want to become a whiner and I already complain about too much anyway.  Just trying to suck it up and deal with it.