My Time

3 Rounds

250 Meter Row
20 Jump Ropes
10 Stair Climbs

I decided I was too deep in my frustration and just so discouraged with no motivation unless others talked me into going so, I went to the gym Friday morning to work on things.  To my surprise nobody else was there for class.

I went and ran 400 meters but didn't do great on time as it took me more than 4 minutes.  I'm really trying to get my time down to 3:30.  I figured I would work on wall ball squats since squats are my weakness.  The coach decided to help me out and come up with my WOD. 

Going up those steps he created just about took my breath away.  I got to the top and couldn't get down without using both feet.  I think my heart started beating 1,000 times a minute at that point.  I felt my anxiety fly to the roof and higher.  I was finally given a PVC pipe to hold onto so I held onto it for 3 times up and down those stairs.  I finally got up and down those steps but it wasn't easy.  I think I felt my stomach drop a 100 times. 

Those jump ropes were doing me in as well.  I think I'm jumping but I'm clearly not getting at least one foot off the ground.  Jump ropes can take my mindset and just screw with it they're so frustrating. 



I'm finally starting to feel some of my frustration go away and some of that motivation come back.  I don't know if it was just being able to do my own WOD and proving to myself that I can overcome some fears or what.  But whatever it was that clicked I'm glad it did.  I still feel that frustration but it's not like it's weighted over my head.  And talking nutrition really helped as I've just been struggling because I've stepped on the scale too many times and not seen any changes this month.  I'm told to stay off it and I really do believe that is the right decision.  It did make me feel better when I asked the coach what I was going to do it at the end of the month I didn't lose anything and he said we'll deal with that then. Just that response put me at some ease.  I didn't feel the pressure I've felt before and feel like I'm going to get chewed out for not losing so many pounds at the end of the month.  Now, I get told to watch my nutrition a lot but that's okay because I need to.  .