Which way to turn???

I just don't know what is going on right now.  I am beyond frustrated to the point I come home in tears because I can't do this or that or can't keep up or go fast enough.  I really do want to improve but that spark of enthusiasm is gone.  I work out with great people so I'm just not understanding why I just want to cry every time I look at a WOD.  Nobody discourages me.  But I just feel like I'll never be fast enough or able to keep up in close proximity.  I really do want to get better and do all these things. 

I don't know if it's all the weight lifting and that is beyond intimidating for me.  No matter how hard I concentrate and focus on how to do the lifts I just can't seem to make it happen.  And I know the coaches especially the head coach gets so tired of trying to teach me.  It's been 7 months and I'm no better today than I was on day 1.  I just want to walk out or just not show up sometimes and save the coaches the hassle.  Everyone else seems to catch on so easy and I just don't understand why I can't.  If I say something I'll get fussed at for having a bad attitude.  So I just come home and cry and hope the tears don't show up at the gym.

I've had a few screw ups with the nutrition.  I did so good and then coming off of my fast Sat. night I just couldn't get back into it.  I don't think I've done horrible but 3 cheat meals in 4 days is not part of the plan.  So my next goal is to not have any cheat meals for the remainder of the month.  Once I get 5 strict days in a row I know I'll be back on track.  I just wasn't prepared to have such a difficult time getting back into the nutrition.  But I want this and I'll be back on track yet once again!  What I don't understand is when is that feeling of always hungry going to go away again.  I just want something to eat all the time.  I don't know if it's all in my head or what but I'm ready for this feeling to go away. 

This isn't the first time I've gotten frustrated and won't be the last.