Softer Edge???

 

Overhead Squat 5×3 - 45lbs.

 

Then…

 

21-15-9

Box jumps - 16inch
Burpee Pull-Ups

 

Time: 14:58

 

Anyone want to guess how much I hate overhead squats?  I despise them.  They are one of the hardest things to do.  Holding that bar up over my head and trying to lock my arms and then squat is beyond me. 

 

The step ups for box jumps are getting better.  I just have to quit stepping away from the box before stepping back up again.  As the coach said it takes away my time.  And it probably takes away my keeping moving.

 

Those burpees are so freakin' hard.  It is so hard to get back up off the floor.  I know it's one of the better exercises for me and the movement will only help me.  I just want them to get easier. 

 

I don't know what was with that jumping to reach the wall was all about after the burpee.   I hate jumping and it took an overwhelming mental toll on this girlie tonight.  I know I am too self conscious and it's up to me to get over it but it's so hard. 

I'll have to admit seeing a scale come out on the floor and 2 people get on it shut me down mentally too.  Having it placed not too far from me had me looking for an exit.  I don't think I'll ever be that comfy with weighing in front of anyone.  In fact, I know I would just walk out of the gym and leave if ever asked to weigh in front of everyone.  I need to keep some things private and this is one of them.   

I knew during the first set of burpees I was mentally shutting down and I was trying to fight it.  I just never overcame it.  I know I have to work on this not happening.  Disappointment in myself is my biggest weakness and I have to quit focusing on the negative.  I see some interesting talks with G-d this week during my holidays. 

I have no problem finishing last but I really want to get to where I can keep up with the others and finish in a time somewhere near the rest of everyone. 

The coach really was trying to be supportive and encouraging tonight.  I'm actually used to getting fussed at a lot more than I did tonight.  Not sure what was with his softer edge tonight.  Not sure I want to admit I missed being yelled at either - LOL!  He fussed but just in a nicer way.   He did call me out when I put my hair over my face.  He knew I was having my own pity party and wasn't wanting me to stay in it.  I'll admit I deliberately tried to stay away from him but he called me over to chat for a second.  He was right in what all he said when he told me I just need to get over it and do it.  And then he tried to make me see my accomplishment of finishing within the time I allotted for myself.  Wish I had gotten his 12 minutes he thought it would take but I'll take my 14:58!