Still Learning

So, this morning I went and worked on several weaknesses. 

Stair climbing
Squats
Wall Balls

That stair climbing takes a toll on my nerves.  I think my stomach falls a 1,000 times every time I see steps.  At least I know he can't make them any higher than 30 inches but that 30 inches was enough to make me want to curl up in a ball on the floor and cry.

I got the box back.  I'm not surprised the coach didn't hold out another week but I sure was hoping.  It wasn't easy and I feel defeated but I finally sucked it up and halfway accepted it.  I have no choice.  But it is an emotional toll. 

I really wish all this didn't take an emotional toll on me.  It's just hard.  A part of me just wanted to run out screaming. 

I really am appreciative that the coach is willing to take the time to work with me and I know he's just trying to help me get better and improve. 

I just have to learn to listen to him and not fight against him.  I really have to watch my attitude.  I'm learning... slowly but learning the hard way.