Going to do Better!

This has been one heck of a week and roller coaster ride of emotions.  Well, it's actually been that way for several weeks if I'm going to be honest.  Unfortunately, a lot of emotions from my work and personal life have interfered with my WOD's.  I think it all hit Thursday night and it came from nowhere.  I walked into the gym thinking everything was fine and happy to see everyone and somewhere in that warm up my mind shut down. 

All of a sudden I couldn't do those 65lb. squat cleans.  I found myself barely bending my knees to do a squat.  The more I tried to do the squat I was getting nowhere.  It didn't help when the coach told me I was doing fine.  I wonder if sometimes they see my frustration on my face and it's their way of encouraging me to push on and keep trying? 

Lately, I've been told that people thought this coach was tough on me but the more I think about it I wonder if I'm actually tougher or just more sarcastic than I need to be towards him.  He really is a good coach but for some reason my moments hit on his night of coaching.  So not fair to him. 

I've tried talking to a few folks about what goes wrong and how to fix it.  Some suggestions are we all have our moments that we shut down.  But with talking with someone else I think it might be because I'm not feeling pushed hard enough to do better and to challenge myself harder.  I just don't like making decisions in the gym.  I do it in all other aspects of my life but when I come to the gym I just want someone to tell me what I need to do. 

So the next time I have this coach in the gym I'm going to make an extra effort to ensure I don't shut down and be a little nicer.  This coach really did and does try to help.  I don't think he's very tough on me as another coach has him beat in that area.  But maybe we can come to some sort of compromise... I'll be a little more accommodating and less sarcastic and he can get tougher on me as the other coach does and maybe things will get better.  After all, he is the coach and I have to trust him with what the WOD has prescribed in it.