Conquering

It's been a roller coaster of a ride again this week.  I started out horribly with the nutrition and then missed a few workouts.  It was like nothing was going right at the beginning of the week. If it was going to go wrong it was going to happen.  I just haven't figured out how to get my work life and personal life out of that gym.  I try my hardest to leave all those other problems out of the gym but they still creep into my head. 

By mid-week I was finally able to start turning my mood and attitude around into a more positive light.  I got myself back on the nutrition track and back into the gym.  I felt like I had been gone from it all for an eternity when it was only a matter of days. 

It made me realize I am more dedicated to getting healthy than I had thought.  I knew I was committed but something about having it missing out of my routine and life really made me miss it.  While I may gripe and complain about the WOD's I do enjoy it.  And it is working for me!

I took a step towards the end of the week and committed to doing a 5K August 3rd.  I am so scared and petrified to do this.  So many thoughts are going thru my head about the only one I've done back in March which was about 3 weeks after I started CrossFit.  Everyone says I'll be surprised at how much I've improved since then.  I keep wanting to believe them but I'm still living back in March in my head.  So after taking in others advice I finally said I can either live in the past or take a step forward and live in the present and look to the future.  I had almost decided in my head that afternoon but after asking one of the coaches after the WOD what they thought about my doing this I knew the answer was yes. 

Between one coach telling me to trust that CrossFit is helping to prepare me for this and the other coach telling me all I wanted to do last time was quit and this time to look to what I can do along with someone else telling me they would do it with me step for step I knew I needed to make the commitment and do this.  So, I'm going to take a deep breath and do this. 

Besides all the stuff I want to conquer, learn and do at the gym I'm really going to try to leave all the other stuff going outside those gym doors.  I'll probably have to lecture myself on this one a lot in the future but I'm going to try!