I struggled with something this morning and it came out of the blue. While it is really nice to hear that people acknowledge that I'm losing weight it is still extremely uncomfortable. I was faced with someone asking me that this morning and I said I didn't know. I thought they wanted to know how much additional weight I have lost as they knew I had lost 20lbs. I really didn't know because at my last weigh in a week or so ago I had not lost any and think I had gained. So then I get fussed at for not saying how much. And my response was it had not changed. Then I get told to step on the scale. Not exactly my favorite thing to do. I lost about 5 more pounds.
I wish I could make the coaches understand how hard it is emotionally for me to stand on that scale and look at that number. I've stood on scales before and seen nothing but weight gain and that's always my fear when I step up on one. Today was good with pounds loss. It's just that fear and insecurity I have.
I need to handle this question so much better in the future After all I was told by this coach I over analyze things ;-) Guess he hasn't figured out yet it's better in the long run if I over analyze and think things through sometimes so I work on not making the same mistakes over and over - LOL!
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