I have to find a way to get through these hurdles. I've gone from being frustrated to feeling not challenged at all. Somehow mentally I need to figure out how to get through these moments without wanting to throw something across the room. It's not going to do any good to cherry pick the WOD's but it always seems to go from one extreme to the other.
Front Squat
5set x 2rep 90%
85lbs.
2007
Row 1 K
Five rounds of:
25 Pull-ups
7 Push Jerks (55lbs)
Time: 19:39
I have no idea how I did on the front squats other than the obvious that I don't squat low enough. Have no idea if I even did any better with the squats. All I can say is I know I was making an effort to go lower.
I hate rowing. Just not challenging. I almost jacked up the number from 7 to 10. It's exhausting but I just don't like it.
The jumping pull ups were just that. Those are the most boring things in the world to do.
Push Jerks didn't challenge me at all. 55lbs. might as well have been like picking up my purse.
I walked out of the gym tonight being very confused. I went from frustration and aggravation to not feeling challenged. I decided I would let the coach know how I was feeling. Not sure if that was the right decision or not but I just felt like I needed to say something. I know I have to make the changes especially mentally and I am the only one who can get me out of my frustration. I'm going to have to learn to speak up and be more assertive.
It's just so hard to want to accomplish so many of these exercises in the WOD's and when I can't I get so mad at myself and the frustration sets in. Then I felt like I was sandbagging the WOD tonight. And it didn't help that folks are always telling me I'm strong especially with my arms and then the coach puts light weights on my bar. REALLY??? Makes me want to not listen to the coaches when it comes to putting weights on my bar. But I know that's not right because they know best. I don't know what the coach was thinking tonight for giving me such light weights. I don't normally pay attention to what others have on the board but I did tonight and I really feel slighted that right now I'm not even posting on the whiteboard.
So I debated about posting this blog as I don't know who if anyone reads this. I'm not trying to talk negatively about anyone. I'm just working out my feelings so I can keep moving forward and get rid of this frustration. But sometimes it's hard for me when the coach that I'm used to pushing me the hardest doesn't push me at all. I think writing all this out and finally saying that is what is really bothering me. I wish I was a self motivated person but I'm not. I do need to learn to do more on my own and just take a chance in that gym and risk getting fussed at for trying to do too much instead of not enough. I really do like all my coaches and they are all awesome. I just didn't have a good day but tomorrow will be better and hope if any of my coaches do read this they understand I really do want this lifestyle change and I want the benefits of being able to do these exercises and do them right to the best of my capabilities.
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Too Tough
This was not a good WOD. If I cherry picked WOD's it would definitely be the AMRAPS. I feel like I push myself harder when I have rounds to do more so than within a time limit. But I'll keep trying and work on pushing myself harder. Although, tonight was difficult. I don't like to jump but am pushing myself to jump, at least in my head I am but my feet just still aren't moving right. And the more I worked with the PVC pipe the more I got frustrated. I just don't feel like I made any progress tonight doing the clean and jerks or whatever it was we did for warm up. The coach tried to make sure I didn't get too frustrated but it was too late. I really tried to change my attitude around but it was a struggle I never quite accomplished getting over. If I could have gotten away with it I would have tossed that PVC pipe across the room. I thought about getting a wall ball and just pounding it into the ground several times. I hate WOD's where I don't feel like I came out doing anything halfway decent. Tonight was one of them. Everything that was a challenge I never accomplished and those things that I already knew how to do didn't challenge me to do any better.
Then…
Complete as many rounds as possible in 12 minutes of:
4 deadlifts (155lb.)
8 lateral jump burpees over barbell - my version was jump over a line
12 box jumps - my version on a 45lb. weight
Completed 2 Rounds with an additional 4 deadlifts and 7 jump over a line and then a burpee.
No matter how I feel about this WOD I have to suck it up and move forward.
But I hope that one day comes soon where a lot of this clicks in my mind and I just do it. I'm so tired of feeling like I'll never get the hang of these lifts and exercises. I concentrate and think about what the coach says to do and watch the demonstrations they give. So can one day happen tomorrow!!!
8×1 split jerk - PVC pipe so NO WEIGHT
Complete as many rounds as possible in 12 minutes of:
4 deadlifts (155lb.)
8 lateral jump burpees over barbell - my version was jump over a line
12 box jumps - my version on a 45lb. weight
Completed 2 Rounds with an additional 4 deadlifts and 7 jump over a line and then a burpee.
No matter how I feel about this WOD I have to suck it up and move forward.
But I hope that one day comes soon where a lot of this clicks in my mind and I just do it. I'm so tired of feeling like I'll never get the hang of these lifts and exercises. I concentrate and think about what the coach says to do and watch the demonstrations they give. So can one day happen tomorrow!!!
Monday, July 29, 2013
Tough but Fun
Tonight was a fun WOD! But OMG my arms and back hurt. I'm thinking my back hurts because I didn't squat low enough and not using my legs when doing the snatches.
3 Rounds
21 Power Snatch (55lbs)
400m Run
Those snatches were hard. I'm feeling now why I need to learn to use my legs and hips more when doing the weights. My back is aching. It's not too painful but I can feel it. Or maybe that's the way it's supposed to feel.
That 400 meter run was tough because I was so exhausted from everything else we did. But I had the best crew running with me. They keep me motivated to keep my feet moving and not stopping. That is until the last round. I was so exhausted but my feet didn't stop.
Breakfast
1 cup skim milk
1 cup strawberries
protein powder
Lunch
3 oz. roast
Tomatoes
Grapes
Snack
4 half deviled eggs
Grapes
Tomatoes
Dinner
3 oz. Roast
Grapes
Broccoli
Green Beans
Snack
1/2 cup Yogurt with 1 1/2 tsp. peanut butter
2 Cups Milk
I didn't get lunch within 3 hours of breakfast and still need to catch up on those 20 squats that are supposed to be after every meal. To be done before bed here in a bit. I'm determined to get this right just don't know how long that's going to take. But I will get it!
5×3 Deadlift
115 lbs.
then…
“Muffins & Sweatpants”
3 Rounds
21 Power Snatch (55lbs)
400m Run
Those snatches were hard. I'm feeling now why I need to learn to use my legs and hips more when doing the weights. My back is aching. It's not too painful but I can feel it. Or maybe that's the way it's supposed to feel.
That 400 meter run was tough because I was so exhausted from everything else we did. But I had the best crew running with me. They keep me motivated to keep my feet moving and not stopping. That is until the last round. I was so exhausted but my feet didn't stop.
Breakfast
1 cup skim milk
1 cup strawberries
protein powder
Lunch
3 oz. roast
Tomatoes
Grapes
Snack
4 half deviled eggs
Grapes
Tomatoes
Dinner
3 oz. Roast
Grapes
Broccoli
Green Beans
Snack
1/2 cup Yogurt with 1 1/2 tsp. peanut butter
2 Cups Milk
I didn't get lunch within 3 hours of breakfast and still need to catch up on those 20 squats that are supposed to be after every meal. To be done before bed here in a bit. I'm determined to get this right just don't know how long that's going to take. But I will get it!
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Trying Each Day
Even though I started this funky Carb Cycle nutrition plan on Friday I'm going to start with today's meals/snacks as I didn't do great on Friday and yesterday included a cheat meal. So we're basically starting fresh today. This eating every 3 hours is really hard. I haven't been right on time with every meal/snack but I've been pretty close. Still have to work on drinking a gallon of water as that is a struggle to drink that much. But I'm going to do it.
Breakfast
1 hard boiled egg
1 cup Skim Milk
1/2 cup yogurt with peanut butter
Lunch
3 oz. chicken with BBQ sauce (discovered a little late this wasn't on the list)
Tomatoes
Grapes
Snack
1/2 cup yogurt with peanut butter
1/4 cup Skim Milk
Dinner
3 oz. Roast
Broccoli, green beans, onions, celery (totaling 1 1/2 blocks carbs)
9 Almonds
Water
Snack
1/3 cup Yogurt with peanut butter
1 cup Skim Milk
Looking at this I didn't too good on cutting back on the carbs but I tried. It's so hard for me figure out all of this. I'm good in math but for some reason putting it to use with a menu screws me over. I see where I went wrong and just have to fix it by doing better and staying with the nutrition plan. Just trying each day to get better than yesterday!
Breakfast
1 hard boiled egg
1 cup Skim Milk
1/2 cup yogurt with peanut butter
Lunch
3 oz. chicken with BBQ sauce (discovered a little late this wasn't on the list)
Tomatoes
Grapes
Snack
1/2 cup yogurt with peanut butter
1/4 cup Skim Milk
Dinner
3 oz. Roast
Broccoli, green beans, onions, celery (totaling 1 1/2 blocks carbs)
9 Almonds
Water
Snack
1/3 cup Yogurt with peanut butter
1 cup Skim Milk
Looking at this I didn't too good on cutting back on the carbs but I tried. It's so hard for me figure out all of this. I'm good in math but for some reason putting it to use with a menu screws me over. I see where I went wrong and just have to fix it by doing better and staying with the nutrition plan. Just trying each day to get better than yesterday!
Jump Ropes and Hang Cleans
8 x 1 hang cleans - 75lbs.
Complete the following for time:
6 hang power cleans (65lbs.)
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
5 hang power cleans
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
4 hang power cleans
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
3 hang power cleans
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
2 hang power cleans
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
1 hang power clean
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
Time: 12:10
I thought my arms were going to fall off by the time the initial hang cleans were done before the WOD. By the time I got to the WOD I couldn't lift the bar and took off 10lbs.
I really do not like jump ropes but am glad I'm not giving into my frustration!
It was a good WOD. I just have to make sure I don't start giving into that frustration of mine.
Complete the following for time:
6 hang power cleans (65lbs.)
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
5 hang power cleans
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
4 hang power cleans
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
3 hang power cleans
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
2 hang power cleans
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
1 hang power clean
20 single jump ropes (attempts)
Time: 12:10
I thought my arms were going to fall off by the time the initial hang cleans were done before the WOD. By the time I got to the WOD I couldn't lift the bar and took off 10lbs.
I really do not like jump ropes but am glad I'm not giving into my frustration!
It was a good WOD. I just have to make sure I don't start giving into that frustration of mine.
Friday, July 26, 2013
Getting there...
Today's WOD worked every bit of me! I used a wall ball on 2 weights to make sure I squatted low enough with the front squats. It really does feel good to not have to deal with that box anymore.
“The Admiral”
3 Rounds for time of:
20 Burpee pullups
20 Front squats (155,105)
20 Box jumps (24/20)
Time: 29:48
Those burpees work every last inch of you. One of these days I will master the correct way of doing a burpee.
Front Squats were hard! Trying to stay on my heels and keep my chest up while holding the bar was tough. But I felt the ball over half the time so I know I was going lower than I normally do.
Box Jumps are still somewhere down the line to accomplish but for now I'm good with that 45lb. weight to jump on. I felt good about them. Was told that I'm about to graduate to another weight. I say bring it on!
So the new Carb Cycle nutrition plan started today. 1 Regular day followed by 2 Low Carb days and follow the pattern getting 1 cheat meal at the end. No sugar at all. With 20 air squats thrown in after each snack/meal. This is going to be tough but I'm up for the challenge.
Breakfast
1 hard boiled egg
2 cups skim milk
1/2 cup fruit medley
1 tsp peanut butter
Snack
2 cups skim milk
2/3 tsp peanut butter
Lunch
Grilled Chicken Salad with strawberries and mangos and pecans
Dinner
3 oz. chicken
1 cup green beans stirred un 1/3 tsp. butter
1 cup grapes
Snack
2 cups Skim Milk
2/3 tsp peanut butter.
Have to get on this every 3 hour schedule. I did good until I was out shopping too long. I will get this!
“The Admiral”
3 Rounds for time of:
20 Burpee pullups
20 Front squats (155,105)
20 Box jumps (24/20)
Time: 29:48
Those burpees work every last inch of you. One of these days I will master the correct way of doing a burpee.
Front Squats were hard! Trying to stay on my heels and keep my chest up while holding the bar was tough. But I felt the ball over half the time so I know I was going lower than I normally do.
Box Jumps are still somewhere down the line to accomplish but for now I'm good with that 45lb. weight to jump on. I felt good about them. Was told that I'm about to graduate to another weight. I say bring it on!
So the new Carb Cycle nutrition plan started today. 1 Regular day followed by 2 Low Carb days and follow the pattern getting 1 cheat meal at the end. No sugar at all. With 20 air squats thrown in after each snack/meal. This is going to be tough but I'm up for the challenge.
Breakfast
1 hard boiled egg
2 cups skim milk
1/2 cup fruit medley
1 tsp peanut butter
Snack
2 cups skim milk
2/3 tsp peanut butter
Lunch
Grilled Chicken Salad with strawberries and mangos and pecans
Dinner
3 oz. chicken
1 cup green beans stirred un 1/3 tsp. butter
1 cup grapes
Snack
2 cups Skim Milk
2/3 tsp peanut butter.
Have to get on this every 3 hour schedule. I did good until I was out shopping too long. I will get this!
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Reality Check
Another tough WOD and I succeeded at not letting my frustration get the best of me. I am proud of myself for that. I didn't get mad at the jump ropes and kept trying the entire 5 minutes. I tried to run the 400 meters and that hill got me halfway up. I tried not to stop but I couldn't figure out the breathing and was getting so exhausted. I kept moving though. I had the cutest running partner. The coach's kids are awesome athletes and one of them ran with me again. She'll never understand how motivating that is to me. But it made me push myself harder. I'm going to be able to keep up with those kids one day. And that is my motivation to keep running.
Attach an object at precisely 12″ above your maximum reach with rope or cord, and complete 4 rounds for time of:
30 Jump and touch
125 pound Deadlift, 20 reps
10 Push-ups
Time: 23:31
I never succeeded at touching that bar above my head. Jumping is harder than it seems. But I did every one of those jumps and tried.
That 125lb. deadlift for 20 reps at a time were so hard. That bar was so heavy. I didn't think I would be able to do all 4 rounds and thought about dropping the weight several times but I really wanted to do it. And I'm proud of myself for not giving up. I put my faith in my trainers that if they thought it was too heavy or I was doing it wrong they would have said something to me and made me drop the weight down. Since they didn't do that I kept on. So glad I did!
Getting my knees off the floor for the push ups is so hard but I did it every time. May not have been pretty but I did it.
Got caught off guard with a chat about nutrition. I needed to talk nutrition because I haven't done very well lately. I don't know who was more disappointed me or the coach in how horrible I've done with my eating this month. I tried to tell him I hadn't lost any weight this month and he kept saying I had. And as much as I want to prove him wrong at times... this is not something I ever want to prove him wrong on ever again!!! He didn't even want to tell me. I should know by now to expect to be asked to get on the scale. And to be prepared.
So, the new nutrition plan is
1 Regular day
2 Lower Carb days
1 Regular day
2 Lower Carb days
1 Regular day with 1 allowable cheat meal this day.
Have to eat breakfast within 30 minutes of getting up in the morning
Have to eat every 3 hours
I'm going to start this on Friday as I need to go grocery shopping and make sure I have all my food to prep. This is going to be hard but if I can just get through the first week I think I'll be okay. I needed this wake up call. And having to admit what my go to foods are and what I've been eating is a reality check. I thought it would be by keeping track on here but the difference I discovered is admitting the truth to someone else is more eye opening than what is on a piece of paper or in this case a blog. If I could have crawled in a hole right then and there I would have. Between admitting what I really eat and not losing any weight just smacked me in the butt!!! Now, it's time to get serious!
Attach an object at precisely 12″ above your maximum reach with rope or cord, and complete 4 rounds for time of:
30 Jump and touch
125 pound Deadlift, 20 reps
10 Push-ups
Time: 23:31
I never succeeded at touching that bar above my head. Jumping is harder than it seems. But I did every one of those jumps and tried.
That 125lb. deadlift for 20 reps at a time were so hard. That bar was so heavy. I didn't think I would be able to do all 4 rounds and thought about dropping the weight several times but I really wanted to do it. And I'm proud of myself for not giving up. I put my faith in my trainers that if they thought it was too heavy or I was doing it wrong they would have said something to me and made me drop the weight down. Since they didn't do that I kept on. So glad I did!
Getting my knees off the floor for the push ups is so hard but I did it every time. May not have been pretty but I did it.
Got caught off guard with a chat about nutrition. I needed to talk nutrition because I haven't done very well lately. I don't know who was more disappointed me or the coach in how horrible I've done with my eating this month. I tried to tell him I hadn't lost any weight this month and he kept saying I had. And as much as I want to prove him wrong at times... this is not something I ever want to prove him wrong on ever again!!! He didn't even want to tell me. I should know by now to expect to be asked to get on the scale. And to be prepared.
So, the new nutrition plan is
1 Regular day
2 Lower Carb days
1 Regular day
2 Lower Carb days
1 Regular day with 1 allowable cheat meal this day.
Have to eat breakfast within 30 minutes of getting up in the morning
Have to eat every 3 hours
I'm going to start this on Friday as I need to go grocery shopping and make sure I have all my food to prep. This is going to be hard but if I can just get through the first week I think I'll be okay. I needed this wake up call. And having to admit what my go to foods are and what I've been eating is a reality check. I thought it would be by keeping track on here but the difference I discovered is admitting the truth to someone else is more eye opening than what is on a piece of paper or in this case a blog. If I could have crawled in a hole right then and there I would have. Between admitting what I really eat and not losing any weight just smacked me in the butt!!! Now, it's time to get serious!
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Much Better
I was determined to change my attitude around tonight and focus on what I can do and what else I can learn to do. The warm up still sucked as far as being hard but I felt good about it especially when I was done. Now, that indian run tried to take me down mentally but I refused to let it. I got through it even though I didn't complete it the way it was supposed to be done. I did complete it by not stopping and just letting everyone else run to the front of the line. Once the coach said it was okay to just run because he knew I was trying to keep up but my pace just isn't as fast as everyone else I was okay. And it was nice of him to run beside me. Little things like that help me stay motivated. He didn't make me feel bad that I can't keep up, nor did my fellow CF folks because they know I struggle with holding others back. I didn't give up.
So we went into the gym to prepare for the WOD. As I was standing there watching the coach prep a few folks for what they were going to do I thought about how I didn't give into my frustration and I felt good about trying and giving it all I had. I walked over to the wall where we can write what we want to accomplish and wrote the following:
To my surprise I didn't know the coach was paying attention and he walked past and started reading what I was writing. I got a thumbs up and he said he liked that. It felt good to write it there where I can see it and in the moments I forget and let the frustration take over hopefully I will remember I wrote it and look at it and read it again.
For time: 12:17
35lb. Back squat, 21 reps
42 ABMAT .Sit-ups
35lb. Back squat, 15 reps
30 ABMAT Sit-ups
35lb. Back squat, 9 reps
18 ABMAT Sit-ups
Tonight's contraption consisted of putting a wall ball on top of 2 weights to make sure I squatted low enough during the back squats. I believe I touched the ball at least half the time. I know if I didn't touch the ball I came awfully close. I felt myself get off balance a few times so I tried readjusting my feet. I don't know if it was because I was concentrating on staying on my heels and squatting low enough but I gave it all I had.
I felt good and accomplished when I was done. I did make everyone laugh during the warm up because when we got to the part where I had to hold my legs 6 inches in the air while someone did the suicide run I was struggling. I said I discovered that my boobs can't keep me down. Everyone just laughed. My boobs are the first to hit the floor in burpees and push ups but they can't help me with this exercise. It just came out.
Then there was the chat that the coach and I had and he said he liked coaching me after I've done a WOD coached by the other male coach. He called the other one the bad cop! So I guess he's the good cop! Just made me laugh.
So we went into the gym to prepare for the WOD. As I was standing there watching the coach prep a few folks for what they were going to do I thought about how I didn't give into my frustration and I felt good about trying and giving it all I had. I walked over to the wall where we can write what we want to accomplish and wrote the following:
DON'T LET THE FRUSTRATION GET THE BEST OF ME!!!
To my surprise I didn't know the coach was paying attention and he walked past and started reading what I was writing. I got a thumbs up and he said he liked that. It felt good to write it there where I can see it and in the moments I forget and let the frustration take over hopefully I will remember I wrote it and look at it and read it again.
For time: 12:17
35lb. Back squat, 21 reps
42 ABMAT .Sit-ups
35lb. Back squat, 15 reps
30 ABMAT Sit-ups
35lb. Back squat, 9 reps
18 ABMAT Sit-ups
Tonight's contraption consisted of putting a wall ball on top of 2 weights to make sure I squatted low enough during the back squats. I believe I touched the ball at least half the time. I know if I didn't touch the ball I came awfully close. I felt myself get off balance a few times so I tried readjusting my feet. I don't know if it was because I was concentrating on staying on my heels and squatting low enough but I gave it all I had.
I felt good and accomplished when I was done. I did make everyone laugh during the warm up because when we got to the part where I had to hold my legs 6 inches in the air while someone did the suicide run I was struggling. I said I discovered that my boobs can't keep me down. Everyone just laughed. My boobs are the first to hit the floor in burpees and push ups but they can't help me with this exercise. It just came out.
Then there was the chat that the coach and I had and he said he liked coaching me after I've done a WOD coached by the other male coach. He called the other one the bad cop! So I guess he's the good cop! Just made me laugh.
Monday, July 22, 2013
DAMN!!! That Coach seems to always be right...
Well, it felt good to get my feelings out! But now that I've had time to think about how I was feeling and read it over I realized the coach was right. DAMN!!! I hate that he always seems to be right! While I still haven't accomplished those lunges he was right to push me the way he did. He has more confidence in me than I do in myself. I let myself get overwhelmed by what was written on the whiteboard instead of focusing on what I can do and most of all what I can accomplish if I only let myself be confident enough to do so.
I don't know why I can't stop to remember this in the moment and it takes me hours later to come to my senses. I just need to kick myself in the butt for this one.
Tomorrow is another day and it's going to be a good one!
I don't know why I can't stop to remember this in the moment and it takes me hours later to come to my senses. I just need to kick myself in the butt for this one.
Tomorrow is another day and it's going to be a good one!
Frustration at it's Best - UGH!!!
Tonight's WOD was more than I could handle. I get frustrated and pissed off at times but rarely do both happen at the same time. I really had to bite my tongue tonight. I do not like being told I know how to do something when I know I don't. I have no problems trying to do something but I do know my capabilities. I also know it's the coaches job to push me. But sometimes I would rather hear the coach say I know you have trouble doing this or that so do what you can instead of telling me they know I can do something when I know I can't. And it doesn't help when I'm on the first round and everyone else is almost done with their 5 rounds. And it's only the warm up. I can handle being last during the WOD but in the warm up I know I'm holding everyone else up from being able to start the WOD. But I will say for the first time I was told to stop the warm up after I got thru with the round I was on. DUH! Is what I wanted to say because I was only on round 3 (and I know I didn't even do all that I was supposed to do in those 3 rounds) and everyone else was done and been done. I had to walk out for a minute and collect myself. It was either that or just break down and cry and snap on a coach. I know the coaches knew I was pissed off and luckily they left me alone. And I have no doubt I pissed the coaches off by walking outside. But I really believe we all needed some alone time from each other.
Take 15 minutes to attempt a 1 rep max push press.
85lbs.
Complete 10 rounds for time of:
10 SDLHP 45lbs.
5 Burpees
Time: 26:26
So during the push press maxes I learned whatever I do say will get back to the coaches. I have such a hard time convincing myself to jump with the lifts. I just have too much bouncing around between the boobs and the stomach that I'm self conscious about it. I feel like every time I do everyone hears everything jiggle. I know that is all in my head. So tonight, the coach came over to me and told me I needed to start using my legs and hips more and he understood and gets it as to why I don't want to jump but to also get over it and just do it. I will have to say I needed to hear that especially from this coach. It's not really an issue around the female coaches. I was kind of surprised this came after my wonderful little walk out.
The SDLHP's were better than I thought they would be. Although, I learned that the shirt I had on over my tank top was not the shirt to wear for lifts as the bar kept sticking to my shirt. After the 2nd round I was done and had to take that shirt off. Problem is my tank tops are too low cut and too big so I feel like I'm flashing everyone. Thank goodness for a decent sports bra - LOL! Guess it really is time to shop for smaller tanks.
Burpees just suck! But one day I'm going to figure out how to do them.
And I really hate anyone comparing my time to anyone else's. I don't care who it is. My goal is to complete the WOD and now even more so the Warm Up. I didn't mean to snap on one of the coaches when they said something to me but that is the one thing that gets to me.
Okay, so writing all this out tonight as well as talking with some of the CF gals about a few of the things I feel a little better. I did come home and just cry but I needed to get it all out. I need to start off tomorrow by putting all this behind me. If not, it's not going to do me any good and it's just going to irritate my coaches and well... one of them has no problem chewing me out when needed which was one of the one's working tonight. So no more pity party, frustration or being pissed off tomorrow!
Since I don't know who if anyone reads what I write just remember this is my place to vent and work through all my feelings about the WOD and CrossFit. I'm not trying to sound mean or ugly to anyone. I know I'm my own worst enemy and I really need to remember to be my own best friend. I do have awesome coaches, all 4 of them. Just sometimes they irritate the hell out of me! As I do them! But I wouldn't trade them for anyone else!
Take 15 minutes to attempt a 1 rep max push press.
85lbs.
Complete 10 rounds for time of:
10 SDLHP 45lbs.
5 Burpees
Time: 26:26
So during the push press maxes I learned whatever I do say will get back to the coaches. I have such a hard time convincing myself to jump with the lifts. I just have too much bouncing around between the boobs and the stomach that I'm self conscious about it. I feel like every time I do everyone hears everything jiggle. I know that is all in my head. So tonight, the coach came over to me and told me I needed to start using my legs and hips more and he understood and gets it as to why I don't want to jump but to also get over it and just do it. I will have to say I needed to hear that especially from this coach. It's not really an issue around the female coaches. I was kind of surprised this came after my wonderful little walk out.
The SDLHP's were better than I thought they would be. Although, I learned that the shirt I had on over my tank top was not the shirt to wear for lifts as the bar kept sticking to my shirt. After the 2nd round I was done and had to take that shirt off. Problem is my tank tops are too low cut and too big so I feel like I'm flashing everyone. Thank goodness for a decent sports bra - LOL! Guess it really is time to shop for smaller tanks.
Burpees just suck! But one day I'm going to figure out how to do them.
And I really hate anyone comparing my time to anyone else's. I don't care who it is. My goal is to complete the WOD and now even more so the Warm Up. I didn't mean to snap on one of the coaches when they said something to me but that is the one thing that gets to me.
Okay, so writing all this out tonight as well as talking with some of the CF gals about a few of the things I feel a little better. I did come home and just cry but I needed to get it all out. I need to start off tomorrow by putting all this behind me. If not, it's not going to do me any good and it's just going to irritate my coaches and well... one of them has no problem chewing me out when needed which was one of the one's working tonight. So no more pity party, frustration or being pissed off tomorrow!
Since I don't know who if anyone reads what I write just remember this is my place to vent and work through all my feelings about the WOD and CrossFit. I'm not trying to sound mean or ugly to anyone. I know I'm my own worst enemy and I really need to remember to be my own best friend. I do have awesome coaches, all 4 of them. Just sometimes they irritate the hell out of me! As I do them! But I wouldn't trade them for anyone else!
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Ship needs to keep sailing...
Yesterday's WOD kicked our butts! The warm up was HELL which this coach's always are. Learned later that will change and my interpretation was all the other coaches were going to be stepping up their game with the warm ups. UGH!!!
SHIP (Hero WOD)
Nine rounds for time of:
65lb. Squat clean, 7 reps
8 Burpee box jumps (45lb. weight)
Time: 43:36
By the time I was done with the warm up from hell I could barely pick up the bar to do a squat clean. I thought my arms were going to fall off! I barely squatted for the squat cleans I was so exhausted. At this point I was just happy to get the bar from the floor to my shoulders each time that the squat just didn't happen.
Those burpee box jumps are hell. I don't know how many prayer sessions I had with the floor just to be able to get back up off the floor. And then my attempts to jump onto the weight were useless. I don't know how many times I fell into the wall. I never thought I would see the last round.
I will say since the WOD's are getting tougher as well as the warm ups. I'm going to have to push myself harder. I saw myself give up too many times yesterday and know I could have and should have pushed myself harder. I know it's not up to the coaches to make me do the WOD but it helps me if they push me harder and don't let me slow down. But if they leave me alone and all to myself I tend to slack up. And tomorrow's WOD is going to be just as ugly as Sat. so it's time to step up and push myself harder.
So once I was done the coach was ready to do the WOD. By this time I was so exhausted I couldn't move. I felt like a zombie. So I sat there and watched him do it. I think I was zoned out for his first 5 rounds as I was so exhausted. But even that coach had a few things to say about this WOD! Made me feel better!
Saturday
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch
2 Cups of Skim Milk
Dinner
Olive Garden Salad
2 Breadsticks
2 Sangrias
Snack
Chips and Salsa
1 1/2 Margaritas
Sunday
Breakfast
1 Cup of Coffee
Lunch
Veggie Taco Salad with beans, cheese, salsa and sour cream
Water
Dinner
3 oz. Chicken
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
SHIP (Hero WOD)
Nine rounds for time of:
65lb. Squat clean, 7 reps
8 Burpee box jumps (45lb. weight)
Time: 43:36
By the time I was done with the warm up from hell I could barely pick up the bar to do a squat clean. I thought my arms were going to fall off! I barely squatted for the squat cleans I was so exhausted. At this point I was just happy to get the bar from the floor to my shoulders each time that the squat just didn't happen.
Those burpee box jumps are hell. I don't know how many prayer sessions I had with the floor just to be able to get back up off the floor. And then my attempts to jump onto the weight were useless. I don't know how many times I fell into the wall. I never thought I would see the last round.
I will say since the WOD's are getting tougher as well as the warm ups. I'm going to have to push myself harder. I saw myself give up too many times yesterday and know I could have and should have pushed myself harder. I know it's not up to the coaches to make me do the WOD but it helps me if they push me harder and don't let me slow down. But if they leave me alone and all to myself I tend to slack up. And tomorrow's WOD is going to be just as ugly as Sat. so it's time to step up and push myself harder.
So once I was done the coach was ready to do the WOD. By this time I was so exhausted I couldn't move. I felt like a zombie. So I sat there and watched him do it. I think I was zoned out for his first 5 rounds as I was so exhausted. But even that coach had a few things to say about this WOD! Made me feel better!
Saturday
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch
2 Cups of Skim Milk
Dinner
Olive Garden Salad
2 Breadsticks
2 Sangrias
Snack
Chips and Salsa
1 1/2 Margaritas
Sunday
Breakfast
1 Cup of Coffee
Lunch
Veggie Taco Salad with beans, cheese, salsa and sour cream
Water
Dinner
3 oz. Chicken
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
Friday, July 19, 2013
Feeling Accomplished!!!
It was a very good day for a WOD!!! I haven't felt so accomplished in quite some time.
1 Deadlift 225 lbs
9:00 AMRAP
6 Wall Balls, 10 lbs
6 Toes-to-bars
6 Box Jumps (used 45lb. weight)
6 Deadlifts 110 lbs
So as I set up for the WOD I heard the coach say making comments as he was setting up a new contraption for me to try when doing squats in any of the exercises. I saw 2 boxes and a PVC pipe stretched across the boxes getting set up. I just kept getting set up because I knew eventually I was going to get introduced to this new get up.
Here come the wall balls and me with this new contraption. From the first wall ball I did I found out I could touch that bar. I wanted to jump up and down I was so happy! Now to take that confidence and move to touching a wall ball. Might have to try it out tomorrow before or after class.
Toes to Bars were hard but I did them.
And I got everyone of those box jumps with both feet going off the ground at one time. I was so proud of myself I didn't step those. Time to move up by adding another weight.
Deadlifts were easy once I did the PR one.
I needed a day where so many things clicked. I felt good going into the gym and felt good coming out of the gym. I have awesome coaches who keep trying to find ways to get me to achieve my goals. I need to remember this when my head gets clouded and my frustration sets in. I did get picked on for not liking any of the movements ;-) I do like some of them but they're all so hard.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch
Chicken Salad with lettuce and tomatoes
Piece of Bread
Water
Dinner
Matzo Ball Soup
Water
Snack
2 Tbsp. Peanut Butter
3 Cups Skim Milk
1 Deadlift 225 lbs
9:00 AMRAP
6 Wall Balls, 10 lbs
6 Toes-to-bars
6 Box Jumps (used 45lb. weight)
6 Deadlifts 110 lbs
So as I set up for the WOD I heard the coach say making comments as he was setting up a new contraption for me to try when doing squats in any of the exercises. I saw 2 boxes and a PVC pipe stretched across the boxes getting set up. I just kept getting set up because I knew eventually I was going to get introduced to this new get up.
Here come the wall balls and me with this new contraption. From the first wall ball I did I found out I could touch that bar. I wanted to jump up and down I was so happy! Now to take that confidence and move to touching a wall ball. Might have to try it out tomorrow before or after class.
Toes to Bars were hard but I did them.
And I got everyone of those box jumps with both feet going off the ground at one time. I was so proud of myself I didn't step those. Time to move up by adding another weight.
Deadlifts were easy once I did the PR one.
I needed a day where so many things clicked. I felt good going into the gym and felt good coming out of the gym. I have awesome coaches who keep trying to find ways to get me to achieve my goals. I need to remember this when my head gets clouded and my frustration sets in. I did get picked on for not liking any of the movements ;-) I do like some of them but they're all so hard.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch
Chicken Salad with lettuce and tomatoes
Piece of Bread
Water
Dinner
Matzo Ball Soup
Water
Snack
2 Tbsp. Peanut Butter
3 Cups Skim Milk
Squats Suck!!!
For time: 17:19
30 ABMAT Sit Ups
95 pound Deadlift, 30 reps
60 Double-unders (30 attempts/30 jumps)
8lb, Overhead squat, 30 reps (using a wall ball)
30 Jumping Pull-ups
Sit ups were fine as well as the Deadlifts and Jumping Pull Ups.
But OMFG those jump ropes SUCK!!! I was beyond frustrated. I was so tired I couldn't get my feet off the ground for the rope. I've seen better days with jump ropes.
Those overhead squats SUCK too!!! I tried to keep that bar over my head as I went into a squat and it fell every time! The coach tried so hard to keep me focused and working with me.
So afterwards we talked about a new way to do squats without a box and use a PVC pipe to touch. I just seem to sit down on the box and it's defeating my purpose.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch
3oz. Chicken
Asparagus steamed
Green Beans steamed
Water
Dinner
Veggie Taco Salad with lettuce, cheese, beans, salsa and sour cream
Water
Snack
2 tsp. peanut butter
2 cups Skim Milk
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Stepping Stones
I felt like I went back to the basics tonight and it felt good. I took in all that I could that the coach said. I want so badly to master those squats and it's a huge challenge when it comes to using the weights. I have to learn to take on these challenges and face these fears and just do it. I'm not good at doing so but I really need to kick my own butt into gear. And get the hell out of these pity parties.
10 Minute Capacity Test
4 Minutes Rowing
38 calories
3 Minutes Jumping Pull Ups
45
2 Minutes Front Squats - 45lbs.
16
1 Minute Shoulder to Overhead - 45lbs.
15
Total Reps
114
Front Squat Max
90lbs.
I really don't like rowing but I'll do it when I have to.
Jumping Pull Ups using 3 weights to stand on. I still have such a hard time climbing onto a box. The coach says I've done it without holding onto everything around but if I have I don't remember. Once I'm on the box I'm okay but getting up there is such a challenge.
Front Squats are so hard because I have yet to master those squats. I really tried to focus on the coach telling me not to sit down on the box and to just touch it and go. Easier said than done. One day... I'm going to get it.
Shoulder to Overhead really wasn't that hard but the weight wasn't that heavy. I focused on using my legs and hips more so maybe if I got it right that's why it didn't seem as hard as I've known them to be.
So yes, the pity party is over! Staying focused is the goal. And remember all my weaknesses are just stepping stones to making me stronger!
10 Minute Capacity Test
4 Minutes Rowing
38 calories
3 Minutes Jumping Pull Ups
45
2 Minutes Front Squats - 45lbs.
16
1 Minute Shoulder to Overhead - 45lbs.
15
Total Reps
114
Front Squat Max
90lbs.
I really don't like rowing but I'll do it when I have to.
Jumping Pull Ups using 3 weights to stand on. I still have such a hard time climbing onto a box. The coach says I've done it without holding onto everything around but if I have I don't remember. Once I'm on the box I'm okay but getting up there is such a challenge.
Front Squats are so hard because I have yet to master those squats. I really tried to focus on the coach telling me not to sit down on the box and to just touch it and go. Easier said than done. One day... I'm going to get it.
Shoulder to Overhead really wasn't that hard but the weight wasn't that heavy. I focused on using my legs and hips more so maybe if I got it right that's why it didn't seem as hard as I've known them to be.
So yes, the pity party is over! Staying focused is the goal. And remember all my weaknesses are just stepping stones to making me stronger!
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Struggles and Moving Forward
I'm struggling and call it a pity party if you want! I still can't shake yesterday's WOD. I talked to the coach tonight and she said she understood what I was saying It is just so hard when I'm typically the last person and the slowest one to finish. I just don't do team WOD's very well. I was defeated before I ever started. I know it's a new day and the best thing to do is move forward but I just haven't been able to shake it. One thing that was said to me was I'm hard on myself because I can do more than I could 5 months ago and feel like I should do better. To me, I feel like I should be farther along than I am. I know I've made accomplishments but there are so many things that I feel should be easy because I used to be able to do them as a child and I struggle to get 1 rep done correctly. So there's my pity party! Now to convince myself to move forward. Maybe after a good night's sleep if I can get one.
Today's WOD really didn't challenge me. The past few WOD's have had harder warm ups than the WOD. I think it should be the other way around. But, oh well!
Isabel
30 Snatches
Time: 3:29
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch
Chicken Caesar Salad
Caesar Dressing.
Grapes
Water
Dinner
1/2 Peanut Butter and Honey Sandwich
1/2 Peanut Butter and Grape Jelly Sandwich
2 Glasses of Skim Milk
Snack
Caramel Yogurt with 1 Tbsp. Peanut Butter
1 Cup Milk
Sometimes I just need to vent and this is my place to do it. Writing things out is sometimes better for me. And right now, my head is full of every emotion known.
Today's WOD really didn't challenge me. The past few WOD's have had harder warm ups than the WOD. I think it should be the other way around. But, oh well!
Isabel
30 Snatches
Time: 3:29
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch
Chicken Caesar Salad
Caesar Dressing.
Grapes
Water
Dinner
1/2 Peanut Butter and Honey Sandwich
1/2 Peanut Butter and Grape Jelly Sandwich
2 Glasses of Skim Milk
Snack
Caramel Yogurt with 1 Tbsp. Peanut Butter
1 Cup Milk
Sometimes I just need to vent and this is my place to do it. Writing things out is sometimes better for me. And right now, my head is full of every emotion known.
Mental Block
I was more than ready to walk out from the WOD before it ever started. I hate doing things in teams or pairs. There is nothing more frustrating than being so far behind in a warm up and then be teamed up with someone at the same time. I can handle being last as far as finishing the WOD but when someone else is relying on you to complete theirs it makes it so much harder. Then if it is a coach they can't even start class until I'm done. Then there were the jump ropes... and then the jump rope broke. If I could have sat down at that moment and had my own pity party I would have. Thankfully, the coach was in a good mood and didn't let me do that. He did threaten me with jumping jacks and well those are on my detest list also. I'd rather suffer thru burpees! I know the coach was getting frustrated with me. So yeah, I was in my own pity party hell! Why? Because doing the warm up and being behind is a mental thing and my mind shuts down. What to do about it? Suck it up and do what I can to push myself harder. Try to stay focused and trust that the coaches will help keep me on track. And breathe!!!
Elizabeth
21-15-9
Cleans - 65lbs.
Push Ups
Time: 8:45
Those cleans were hard. I didn't realize how sore my arms still were until I did the first one. Then to continue. I'm sure I was still curling the bar so I know I really need to work on not doing that.
The Push Ups were about the same. Just have to get up on my toes and off my knees!
It ended up being a good WOD and it worked me. I just really have to get over that mental block. The coaches know what they're doing and all of mine are good at what they do. I have to trust them! It's the only way!
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch
3oz. Roast
Pineapple
Grapes
Water
Dinner
Veggie Taco Salad with lettuce, beans, cheese, salsa and sour cream
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Elizabeth
21-15-9
Cleans - 65lbs.
Push Ups
Time: 8:45
Those cleans were hard. I didn't realize how sore my arms still were until I did the first one. Then to continue. I'm sure I was still curling the bar so I know I really need to work on not doing that.
The Push Ups were about the same. Just have to get up on my toes and off my knees!
It ended up being a good WOD and it worked me. I just really have to get over that mental block. The coaches know what they're doing and all of mine are good at what they do. I have to trust them! It's the only way!
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch
3oz. Roast
Pineapple
Grapes
Water
Dinner
Veggie Taco Salad with lettuce, beans, cheese, salsa and sour cream
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Sunday, July 14, 2013
No WOD Today
Today, one of the gals and I met up walked. We probably walked a mile and a half total. It was just good to get out and move.
Breakfast
2 Eggs
Grapes
Coffee with cream/sugar
1 Cup Skim Milk
Lunch
3 oz. Roast
Grapes
Water
Dinner
Pizza made with cream cheese for crust with tomatoes
Water
Snack
1 Caramel Yogurt
1 tsp Peanut Butter
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Breakfast
2 Eggs
Grapes
Coffee with cream/sugar
1 Cup Skim Milk
Lunch
3 oz. Roast
Grapes
Water
Dinner
Pizza made with cream cheese for crust with tomatoes
Water
Snack
1 Caramel Yogurt
1 tsp Peanut Butter
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Saturday, July 13, 2013
Good Start
Today's WOD got changed up but that's okay because it really was a good WOD and it worked me.
AMWRAP 20:00
5 Shoulder to Overhead 65lbs.
10 Push Ups
15 Walking Lunges with 10lb. weight held in front of me
Rounds: 4 with 7 Lunges
I feel good about tonight's WOD. It was tough but not to the point of exhaustion. Although, the shoulder to overhead almost took me out on my 3rd round. I was struggling and about the time I was going to call for the coach I dropped the bar and luckily the it went forward and I stayed standing. I had to really fight for the last round of shoulder to overhead. My arms were hurting so badly and they're still burning. This exercise forced me to use my legs and hips along with my arms to push the bar up over my head instead of just using my arms which I am bad about.
I got my knees and chest off the floor for the push ups. I wasn't allowed to do girl push ups as I did a few and got caught. Those boy push ups are hard! But I feel better about them this time in comparison to the last time I did them. They'll get better.
Now, walking lunges are not my specialty. I have to work on getting my leg strength better so I can pick myself up off the floor without the use of my arms. All I can say is this one is work in progress.
All in all it was a good WOD and I came away feeling accomplished.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch (Cheat Meal)
1 Grilled Catfish
Baked Potato with Butter and Sour Cream
Broccoli and Cheese casserole
Onion Rings
Soy Beans
Frozen Yogurt
Dinner
3 oz. Roast
1 Cup Grapes
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
AMWRAP 20:00
5 Shoulder to Overhead 65lbs.
10 Push Ups
15 Walking Lunges with 10lb. weight held in front of me
Rounds: 4 with 7 Lunges
I feel good about tonight's WOD. It was tough but not to the point of exhaustion. Although, the shoulder to overhead almost took me out on my 3rd round. I was struggling and about the time I was going to call for the coach I dropped the bar and luckily the it went forward and I stayed standing. I had to really fight for the last round of shoulder to overhead. My arms were hurting so badly and they're still burning. This exercise forced me to use my legs and hips along with my arms to push the bar up over my head instead of just using my arms which I am bad about.
I got my knees and chest off the floor for the push ups. I wasn't allowed to do girl push ups as I did a few and got caught. Those boy push ups are hard! But I feel better about them this time in comparison to the last time I did them. They'll get better.
Now, walking lunges are not my specialty. I have to work on getting my leg strength better so I can pick myself up off the floor without the use of my arms. All I can say is this one is work in progress.
All in all it was a good WOD and I came away feeling accomplished.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Strawberries and Skim Milk
Lunch (Cheat Meal)
1 Grilled Catfish
Baked Potato with Butter and Sour Cream
Broccoli and Cheese casserole
Onion Rings
Soy Beans
Frozen Yogurt
Dinner
3 oz. Roast
1 Cup Grapes
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Thursday, July 11, 2013
250 Squats
Today's WOD kicked butt! It was challenging. I know I started out trying to make sure I didn't lean forward too much. Squats don't look too hard but when doing them it comes to doing them it's another story. Those things are so freakin' hard.
100 Air Squats
9 Rope Progressions
75 Air Squats
6 Rope Progressions
50 Air Squats
3 Rope Progressions
25 Air Squats
Time: 26:48
For the first couple rope progressions I couldn't get up. I don't know why I was struggling so hard. I know part of it was mental as I kept imagining that bar coming down on top of me as I pulled on the rope. I know things are secured in the gym but sometimes that number on the scale just creeps up on me and gets the best of me. I know it drives my coaches crazy when I ask them if something can hold me but just hearing it can helps me a little bit in my head. I didn't say anything tonight as I don't want to get accused of having another pity party. I just don't think they understand what it's like to be told you can't do something because of your weight. And having heard that for years and years it's hard to get that out of my head. There, I feel better just writing it here.
Breakfast
4 half deviled eggs
1 cup milk
Snack
Waffle ice cream cone
Lunch/Dinner
6 oz. Roast
Onions
9 Cashews
Snack
2 Cups Milk
6 Cashews
100 Air Squats
9 Rope Progressions
75 Air Squats
6 Rope Progressions
50 Air Squats
3 Rope Progressions
25 Air Squats
Time: 26:48
For the first couple rope progressions I couldn't get up. I don't know why I was struggling so hard. I know part of it was mental as I kept imagining that bar coming down on top of me as I pulled on the rope. I know things are secured in the gym but sometimes that number on the scale just creeps up on me and gets the best of me. I know it drives my coaches crazy when I ask them if something can hold me but just hearing it can helps me a little bit in my head. I didn't say anything tonight as I don't want to get accused of having another pity party. I just don't think they understand what it's like to be told you can't do something because of your weight. And having heard that for years and years it's hard to get that out of my head. There, I feel better just writing it here.
Breakfast
4 half deviled eggs
1 cup milk
Snack
Waffle ice cream cone
Lunch/Dinner
6 oz. Roast
Onions
9 Cashews
Snack
2 Cups Milk
6 Cashews
Trying...
Tonight's WOD kicked my butt! What else is new?
I was determined to jump on that weight with both feet at the same time and conquer it again. And I did it. It took me a while to get there but I think I figured out what I need to do. The more I bent my knees and used my arms to jump the easier it got. I'm proud of what I did.
The burpees got me. I started out trying to remember how to get down on the floor to do them. I have no idea if I was trying to do them right or not. I think I somehow was on the right path but at the same time something didn't feel right. I wanted to stop and ask the coach but I knew that would take time away from getting the WOD done. He never said anything to me but I know I wasn't doing them right. Guess he was content letting me crawl to the floor and back up. But I wasn't. My fault for not asking and there wasn't time to ask afterwards. That's the worst part about coming to the last class. We all want to go home! Maybe there will be time before another WOD with one of the coaches and I can ask for some help. I really want to learn to do these right. Besides they're killing my knees. And if I can do them right I hope it would cut my time down.
I totally sucked at the squat cleans. Doing a squat with weights kills me. And for once I wanted to grab a box for the squat part. I didn't get any of those right. Again, nothing said to me. I imagine it was because my squats are really horrible anyways. But in all honesty what can any of the coaches say to me that I haven't already heard and know. I just have to do it. It's not up to them it's up to me to do it.
Klepto
4 Rounds
27 Box Jumps (I use a 45lb weight)
20 Burpees
11 Squat Cleans
Time: 39:00
While everything wasn't great I know I tried and gave it all I had.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Skim Milk and Strawberries
Lunch
Chicken Salad with Grapes and Pecans
Water
Dinner
3oz. Roast
onion and celery
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
I was determined to jump on that weight with both feet at the same time and conquer it again. And I did it. It took me a while to get there but I think I figured out what I need to do. The more I bent my knees and used my arms to jump the easier it got. I'm proud of what I did.
The burpees got me. I started out trying to remember how to get down on the floor to do them. I have no idea if I was trying to do them right or not. I think I somehow was on the right path but at the same time something didn't feel right. I wanted to stop and ask the coach but I knew that would take time away from getting the WOD done. He never said anything to me but I know I wasn't doing them right. Guess he was content letting me crawl to the floor and back up. But I wasn't. My fault for not asking and there wasn't time to ask afterwards. That's the worst part about coming to the last class. We all want to go home! Maybe there will be time before another WOD with one of the coaches and I can ask for some help. I really want to learn to do these right. Besides they're killing my knees. And if I can do them right I hope it would cut my time down.
I totally sucked at the squat cleans. Doing a squat with weights kills me. And for once I wanted to grab a box for the squat part. I didn't get any of those right. Again, nothing said to me. I imagine it was because my squats are really horrible anyways. But in all honesty what can any of the coaches say to me that I haven't already heard and know. I just have to do it. It's not up to them it's up to me to do it.
Klepto
4 Rounds
27 Box Jumps (I use a 45lb weight)
20 Burpees
11 Squat Cleans
Time: 39:00
While everything wasn't great I know I tried and gave it all I had.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Skim Milk and Strawberries
Lunch
Chicken Salad with Grapes and Pecans
Water
Dinner
3oz. Roast
onion and celery
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
2 Miles
My entire body aches. The longer I sat down when I came home from the WOD the stiffer my body got. But it was all worth it! I knew the 2 miles was going to push me. As much as I was dreading it I was looking forward to it even more. I was afraid I was going to get scaled back at one point because I was taking so long and I saw the coach standing at the start/finish line after a round. As tired as I was I was really glad when he told me to get ready for the next round. He may probably never believe that but I am glad he let me do the entire 8 rounds of 400 meters. To my surprise he ran the last 400 with me. He was trying to teach me how to breathe and how to find a pattern that works for me. Then, of course he wasn't letting me stop. He told me I ran 350 of that last 400 meters and he didn't let me slow down even in the walk part of it. I needed that push to know I can do this. I can learn to run again and it will all come to me one day. I had a moment of pity and I was called out on it. He doesn't play that game very well. And he doesn't give into my fears and makes me conquer them. I wish I was more self motivated besides getting myself through the doors and pushed myself harder but so glad the coaches aren't afraid to push me and kick my butt into doing what I need to do. Tougher the coaches are on me and the harder they push the more determined I get. I joke that one day I'm going to kick their butt in a WOD but it's more about proving to myself that in doing this I am bettering myself and my health. And I have to admit I want to show them I really am paying attention when they correct me on the exercises and that I've learned to do the exercises correctly.
8 Rounds
Run 400 meters
Rest 90 seconds
Time: Approx. 47 minutes
Tonight was my weigh in and measurement night. I always get a little scared but I sucked it up and did it. I'm now down a total of 31lbs. and have lost 3 inches in the bust, lost 4 inches in the waist and 3 inches in the hips and I think I've lost around 3.5% more body fat.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Skim Milk and Strawberries
Lunch
Chicken Salad with grapes and pecans
Water
Dinner
2 oz. Roast
1 Egg
Onions
9 Cashews.
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
8 Rounds
Run 400 meters
Rest 90 seconds
Time: Approx. 47 minutes
Tonight was my weigh in and measurement night. I always get a little scared but I sucked it up and did it. I'm now down a total of 31lbs. and have lost 3 inches in the bust, lost 4 inches in the waist and 3 inches in the hips and I think I've lost around 3.5% more body fat.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Skim Milk and Strawberries
Lunch
Chicken Salad with grapes and pecans
Water
Dinner
2 oz. Roast
1 Egg
Onions
9 Cashews.
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Monday, July 8, 2013
Threats and Motivation ;-)
50 Wall Balls
25 Toes to Bar
40 Wall Balls
20 Toes to Bar
30 Wall Balls
15 Toes to Bar
20 Wall Balls
10 Toes to Bar
10 Wall Balls
5 Toes to Bars
Time: 26:50
So that was the grueling nightmare tonight for a WOD! I started out with a 14lb. ball and was quickly switched to a 10lb. I had no idea a 14lb. ball was that heavy. But at least I tried. I'll get there one day. I was told to use my legs more and less arms. Well, I thought I got it right a few times but was told afterwards I didn't. Oh well... I tried and I'm proud of myself for getting through it and giving it my all. Still must master those squats. I'll get there!
I felt like I got threatened with the toes to bars - LOL! I was told I had to keep my knees high or I had to switch to abmats. I just didn't want to do the abmats. I wanted to keep challenging myself. I want to gain arm strength so I made every effort to keep my knees swinging high on that bar. So bring on the threats... it motivated me :-)
It may not have been pretty but I did it!
Food for Sunday
Breakfast
2 Eggs
1 Cup Skim Milk
Pineapple
Grapes
9 Cashews
Lunch
Chicken Salad with grapes and pecans
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Dinner
Fried Squash
Tomatoes
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Today's Food
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Skim Milk and Strawberries
Lunch
Chicken Salad with grapes and pecans
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
Dinner
2 oz. Roast
Onions
1 Egg
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 cashews
I messed up with 1 too many Snacks. Put me over in the protein by 2 blocks..
25 Toes to Bar
40 Wall Balls
20 Toes to Bar
30 Wall Balls
15 Toes to Bar
20 Wall Balls
10 Toes to Bar
10 Wall Balls
5 Toes to Bars
Time: 26:50
So that was the grueling nightmare tonight for a WOD! I started out with a 14lb. ball and was quickly switched to a 10lb. I had no idea a 14lb. ball was that heavy. But at least I tried. I'll get there one day. I was told to use my legs more and less arms. Well, I thought I got it right a few times but was told afterwards I didn't. Oh well... I tried and I'm proud of myself for getting through it and giving it my all. Still must master those squats. I'll get there!
I felt like I got threatened with the toes to bars - LOL! I was told I had to keep my knees high or I had to switch to abmats. I just didn't want to do the abmats. I wanted to keep challenging myself. I want to gain arm strength so I made every effort to keep my knees swinging high on that bar. So bring on the threats... it motivated me :-)
It may not have been pretty but I did it!
Food for Sunday
Breakfast
2 Eggs
1 Cup Skim Milk
Pineapple
Grapes
9 Cashews
Lunch
Chicken Salad with grapes and pecans
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Dinner
Fried Squash
Tomatoes
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 Cashews
Today's Food
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Skim Milk and Strawberries
Lunch
Chicken Salad with grapes and pecans
Water
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
Dinner
2 oz. Roast
Onions
1 Egg
Snack
2 Cups Skim Milk
6 cashews
I messed up with 1 too many Snacks. Put me over in the protein by 2 blocks..
Saturday, July 6, 2013
Out of my Comfort Zone
I stepped out of my comfort zone and walked into the unknown. It was good to hang out with the folks.
I think today's WOD was renamed to a Chipper so here goes:
20 Box Jumps
5 Rope Climb attempts
20 Wall Balls
10 Hang Power Cleans
20 Jumping Pull Ups
10 Deadlifts
20 Kettle Bell Swings
10 Power Snatches
20 Burpees
Time: 20:31
It started out with a 400 meter run. To my surprise my feet wanted to run, in the beginning that is until we hit the hill. But for the first time I felt my feet be in sync with my head saying RUN!!! Now, my run isn't like everyone else's but my feet were moving! I'm proud of that fact! I still can't keep up with everyone else and that's okay. I was doing good and then I turned a corner and practically ran into one of the coach's. Just as I was wanting to walk that wasn't going to happen with him there. Good thing though as he's tough on me and pushes me and sometimes I need that kick in the butt to keep going. I was surprised he came back for me. I didn't expect that. But it was the kick I needed. Just that small gesture put some motivation in me. Now, it didn't end my deer in headlights look or end that overwhelming feeling I had as I waited around to do the WOD but I knew everything was going to be okay. I should learn to show it more but I tend to hide all my feelings especially positive ones inside and not share. Working on that. Need to show more of the positive and less of the negative I feel!
Got thru the WOD and gave it all I had. Well, except for those box jumps onto the weight. I have to work on those and squats a whole lot more. That's this next week's goal! I don't know what weight that kettle bell was but I've never lost my footing like I did today. The coach did give me a smaller weight after a few times. I was struggling but I wasn't quitting! Everything else was about the same. I just never thought I would see 20 burpees. Really need to work on going down in the right position again and then work on jumping back up. Time to quit crawling.
So I have my top 3 things to work on:
1. Squats
2. Box Jumps onto that 45lb. weight
3. Burpees
So for the menu today...
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Skim Milk and Strawberries.
Lunch
Protein Shake with Water
Grapes
Dinner
Chicken Salad with grapes and pecans
Water
Snack
1 Cup Skim Milk
1 Cup Caramel Yogurt
6 Cashews
I think today's WOD was renamed to a Chipper so here goes:
20 Box Jumps
5 Rope Climb attempts
20 Wall Balls
10 Hang Power Cleans
20 Jumping Pull Ups
10 Deadlifts
20 Kettle Bell Swings
10 Power Snatches
20 Burpees
Time: 20:31
It started out with a 400 meter run. To my surprise my feet wanted to run, in the beginning that is until we hit the hill. But for the first time I felt my feet be in sync with my head saying RUN!!! Now, my run isn't like everyone else's but my feet were moving! I'm proud of that fact! I still can't keep up with everyone else and that's okay. I was doing good and then I turned a corner and practically ran into one of the coach's. Just as I was wanting to walk that wasn't going to happen with him there. Good thing though as he's tough on me and pushes me and sometimes I need that kick in the butt to keep going. I was surprised he came back for me. I didn't expect that. But it was the kick I needed. Just that small gesture put some motivation in me. Now, it didn't end my deer in headlights look or end that overwhelming feeling I had as I waited around to do the WOD but I knew everything was going to be okay. I should learn to show it more but I tend to hide all my feelings especially positive ones inside and not share. Working on that. Need to show more of the positive and less of the negative I feel!
Got thru the WOD and gave it all I had. Well, except for those box jumps onto the weight. I have to work on those and squats a whole lot more. That's this next week's goal! I don't know what weight that kettle bell was but I've never lost my footing like I did today. The coach did give me a smaller weight after a few times. I was struggling but I wasn't quitting! Everything else was about the same. I just never thought I would see 20 burpees. Really need to work on going down in the right position again and then work on jumping back up. Time to quit crawling.
So I have my top 3 things to work on:
1. Squats
2. Box Jumps onto that 45lb. weight
3. Burpees
So for the menu today...
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake with Skim Milk and Strawberries.
Lunch
Protein Shake with Water
Grapes
Dinner
Chicken Salad with grapes and pecans
Water
Snack
1 Cup Skim Milk
1 Cup Caramel Yogurt
6 Cashews
Friday, July 5, 2013
Struggling and Moving Forward
That was a tough WOD!!! It looked so simple on the board.
Annie
50-40-30-20-10
Jump Ropes
Sit Ups
Time 26:11
The warm up just about got the best of me. Overhead squats are not my thing. The harder I tried the more that bar went down. Between 2 coaches I still couldn't get it. I was struggling. They both tried so hard for me to get it and that 35lb. bar was too heavy. I wanted to do at least 1 with the bar but never succeeded. I remember doing these with another coach and had the same exact problem. He had to hold to bar at times for me too. As well as the bar would just fall in my lap.
Those jump ropes got me. I was given a choice of 100 attempts or 50 singles and down from there. I really wanted the 50 singles. I was concentrating so hard at getting those. I finally ended up at whatever round I was at moving it to attempts total. As much as I wanted to fight I was getting exhausted. The first round took me over 10 minutes if not close to 15. I gave it my all and for that I'm proud of myself.
Sit Ups are just that. Those were like a rest for me.
I wanted to cry at the end of that WOD! I was feeling like the harder I fought the worse I was getting. The coaches were awesome and they really tried to keep me on track. I felt bad for one of them as she was trying so hard to keep me encouraged and to continue to fight to the end. She gives me choices and I hate making decisions - LOL! And then when I thought I was going to lose it someone else noticed and called me out on it. She saw me take my hair down and came over to me and moved my hair out of my face and said she knew that trick. I wanted to smack her and hug her all at the same time. She knew I was on the verge of losing it and thanks to her I held it together and just that little gesture made me stop and realize I can either take these moments of frustration and continue in a pity party or move forward and continue to improve and do better at each WOD. I don't think any of them realize they played a part in me starting to realize this. I know I'll still get frustrated but I need to remember to take the lessons learned from it and move forward. I think I'm starting to grasp some of this mental stuff now (it's only taken me 4 months) because I'm actually smiling as I write this.
So what was on the menu today...
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake - with skim milk and strawberries
Lunch
Chicken Casear Salad with tomatoes and 6 croutons
Casear dressing
Water
Dinner
Protein Shake with water
1 peach
1/2 banana
9 cashews
Snack
2 cups skim milk
9 cashews
Annie
50-40-30-20-10
Jump Ropes
Sit Ups
Time 26:11
The warm up just about got the best of me. Overhead squats are not my thing. The harder I tried the more that bar went down. Between 2 coaches I still couldn't get it. I was struggling. They both tried so hard for me to get it and that 35lb. bar was too heavy. I wanted to do at least 1 with the bar but never succeeded. I remember doing these with another coach and had the same exact problem. He had to hold to bar at times for me too. As well as the bar would just fall in my lap.
Those jump ropes got me. I was given a choice of 100 attempts or 50 singles and down from there. I really wanted the 50 singles. I was concentrating so hard at getting those. I finally ended up at whatever round I was at moving it to attempts total. As much as I wanted to fight I was getting exhausted. The first round took me over 10 minutes if not close to 15. I gave it my all and for that I'm proud of myself.
Sit Ups are just that. Those were like a rest for me.
I wanted to cry at the end of that WOD! I was feeling like the harder I fought the worse I was getting. The coaches were awesome and they really tried to keep me on track. I felt bad for one of them as she was trying so hard to keep me encouraged and to continue to fight to the end. She gives me choices and I hate making decisions - LOL! And then when I thought I was going to lose it someone else noticed and called me out on it. She saw me take my hair down and came over to me and moved my hair out of my face and said she knew that trick. I wanted to smack her and hug her all at the same time. She knew I was on the verge of losing it and thanks to her I held it together and just that little gesture made me stop and realize I can either take these moments of frustration and continue in a pity party or move forward and continue to improve and do better at each WOD. I don't think any of them realize they played a part in me starting to realize this. I know I'll still get frustrated but I need to remember to take the lessons learned from it and move forward. I think I'm starting to grasp some of this mental stuff now (it's only taken me 4 months) because I'm actually smiling as I write this.
So what was on the menu today...
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake - with skim milk and strawberries
Lunch
Chicken Casear Salad with tomatoes and 6 croutons
Casear dressing
Water
Dinner
Protein Shake with water
1 peach
1/2 banana
9 cashews
Snack
2 cups skim milk
9 cashews
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Food Accountability
Breakfast
6 deviled eggs (totaling 3 eggs)
1 banana
2 cups coffee (2 tsp. sugar and 1 tbs. cream)
Used 1 tbs. miracle whip and 1/8 tsp. mustard for deviled eggs
Lunch
Veggie taco salad with lettuce, cheese (3 oz.) salsa and sour cream
Water
Snack
2 half deviled eggs
1 cup milk
1 peach
6 cashews
Dinner
3 oz. chicken
broccoli florets (steamed)
broccoli slaw
1 tsp. slaw dressing
Water
Snack
2 cups milk
6 cashews
So this is what I had all day. I don't think I did too terribly bad and I think I stayed pretty close to my nutrition plan. It really is a lot of food though for 1 day. I had a hard time getting that first snack in as I wasn't really that hungry. Be curious as to how this also compares out in a week or even by the end of the weekend. If I can just get myself on track and stay there I might get this nutrition thing down and not have to write it all down. But I guess I really do over analyze - LOL! In all honesty I just want to this to get drilled in my head. So tired of all the failures and excuses. At least I keep trying.
6 deviled eggs (totaling 3 eggs)
1 banana
2 cups coffee (2 tsp. sugar and 1 tbs. cream)
Used 1 tbs. miracle whip and 1/8 tsp. mustard for deviled eggs
Lunch
Veggie taco salad with lettuce, cheese (3 oz.) salsa and sour cream
Water
Snack
2 half deviled eggs
1 cup milk
1 peach
6 cashews
Dinner
3 oz. chicken
broccoli florets (steamed)
broccoli slaw
1 tsp. slaw dressing
Water
Snack
2 cups milk
6 cashews
So this is what I had all day. I don't think I did too terribly bad and I think I stayed pretty close to my nutrition plan. It really is a lot of food though for 1 day. I had a hard time getting that first snack in as I wasn't really that hungry. Be curious as to how this also compares out in a week or even by the end of the weekend. If I can just get myself on track and stay there I might get this nutrition thing down and not have to write it all down. But I guess I really do over analyze - LOL! In all honesty I just want to this to get drilled in my head. So tired of all the failures and excuses. At least I keep trying.
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Quit Worrying and Do It!
I don't want to admit it but I needed to hear what the coach said tonight. I definitely didn't want to hear it but I listened. Yeah, I need to just do it and quit worrying. One day those words will stick in my head and remain there.
21-15-9
Deadlifts - 105lbs.
Box Jumps - 2 inch (45lb. weight)
Time 7:25
I really have to get over my fear of jumping on that weight. I could do it at one point and then somehow I lost my confidence again. Just have to work on those along with the squats.
So tonight was filled with lots of mini lectures. Hadn't gotten those in a while. Guess I was a little overdo for a reality check. And as much I didn't want to hear what was said I needed to. I did step on that scale for the coach. I'm learning to just suck it up and do it now. Still getting fussed at for not acknowledging my accomplishment of losing weight. It's so hard having fought this battle for so long. But it did feel good to at least say I was afraid if I admitted to the weight loss I was scared it would stop. I was told to drop my carbs by 2 blocks a day. Wish it had been protein I was cut back on but I knew better - LOL! So I'm going to now keep track of what I eat and see how well I do.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake made with Skim Milk and strawberries and blueberries.
Lunch
5 chicken wings
Water
Dinner
3 oz. chicken
Salad - lettuce, tomatoes, onions,
Creamy Italian Dressing
Water
Snack
2 glasses of milk
Teaspoon of peanut butter
While lunch wasn't too great I don't think I did terribly bad. I just have to somehow learn to get thru these 3 days of not wanting to eat. While all my friends raid their cabinets and fridge, food is the last thing I want to look at much less eat. My version of PMS really sucks!
So here goes my attempt to quit worrying and just do it! Easier said than done but I'm going to try!
21-15-9
Deadlifts - 105lbs.
Box Jumps - 2 inch (45lb. weight)
Time 7:25
I really have to get over my fear of jumping on that weight. I could do it at one point and then somehow I lost my confidence again. Just have to work on those along with the squats.
So tonight was filled with lots of mini lectures. Hadn't gotten those in a while. Guess I was a little overdo for a reality check. And as much I didn't want to hear what was said I needed to. I did step on that scale for the coach. I'm learning to just suck it up and do it now. Still getting fussed at for not acknowledging my accomplishment of losing weight. It's so hard having fought this battle for so long. But it did feel good to at least say I was afraid if I admitted to the weight loss I was scared it would stop. I was told to drop my carbs by 2 blocks a day. Wish it had been protein I was cut back on but I knew better - LOL! So I'm going to now keep track of what I eat and see how well I do.
Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake made with Skim Milk and strawberries and blueberries.
Lunch
5 chicken wings
Water
Dinner
3 oz. chicken
Salad - lettuce, tomatoes, onions,
Creamy Italian Dressing
Water
Snack
2 glasses of milk
Teaspoon of peanut butter
While lunch wasn't too great I don't think I did terribly bad. I just have to somehow learn to get thru these 3 days of not wanting to eat. While all my friends raid their cabinets and fridge, food is the last thing I want to look at much less eat. My version of PMS really sucks!
So here goes my attempt to quit worrying and just do it! Easier said than done but I'm going to try!
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
WOW! Still Striving... and Wanting This More and More
I suffered through the WOD today! I was dreading it and looking forward to it all at the same time! But that warm up kicked my butt. I didn't comprehend a damn thing he wanted done. My brain can't move that fast and comprehend what I'm supposed to do. To me, it was like chaos and my head was spinning. And when they wanted me to throw that wall ball harder I really did want to throw it at a human. Not necessarily either of the coaches but I did have a human target in my head. Although it might have been fun to throw it at one of them ;-) Problem is they can throw a lot harder than I can. They have more strength in one hand than I do in my arms and legs put together.
35 Burpees (mine were cut in half)
60 Sit Ups
50 Kettle Bell Swings (26lb.)
40 Pull Ups
30 Push Ups
Time 22:26
I was averaging 5-6 Burpees a minute. The coach was saying an average of 10 per minute so I decided I wanted to see where I was. So my next goal is to get to 7 a minute. I really want to keep up and stay on point. I understand why I was cut in half (even though I really wanted to do the entire WOD) but one day I don't want my burpees cut in half. It will take me some time to get to an average of 10 per minute but I really want to work on increasing them if not by only 1 burpee over the next few weeks. I think that's reasonable. I just have to make it a priority along with those squats and box jumps.
Sit ups were fine. I can feel it in my abs though.
Kettle Bell swings tried to do me in. That 26lb. ball might as well weigh a ton. I just have to make sure I use my hips and not just my arms.
Jumping Pull Ups were the same. I tried to make sure I jumped higher but I was so tired.
Push Ups were my thorn in my side tonight. I just didn't feel like I did them right. My leg was hurting and not in a good way when I was coming up on my toes. We weren't allowed to use our knees and that made them harder. And then just trying to use my arms by this point to push myself off the floor was a challenge. I never thought these would give me such a hard time and neither did the coach. He just shook his head at me. Wondering if I throw too many curve balls at him. I don't mean to. I don't think any of the coaches have learned yet what they think will bother me won't and what they don't think will bother me will.
As much a I hate that I didn't do the complete WOD I do understand the scaling back. I just want to get to a point where I'm not scaled back and I'm not doing the WOD an eternity having people hang around longer than they want waiting on me to finish. I do still wonder if the coaches get tired of waiting on me to finish and are ready to go. I really don't care where I finish and finishing last is fine with me. But I know going to the last class it has to be tiresome as we all are ready to go home at some point. DAMN!!! I thought I had worked through this mental block already. Any reason it had to creep back around???
All I can do is strive to do better and improve the exercises and my time. I really do want to get the hang of all this. This morning I was talking to a coworker and she and I were talking about all the things I want to do when I get healthy enough to do them. It really reminded me how badly I want to get healthy and lose this weight and have the strength and stamina to do things like zip lining, drive a racing car around the speedway, take flying lessons and so many more things on my list. Hell, I still want to go to bull riding school! I'm tired of sitting on the sidelines and watching everyone else go out and have fun. I DO WANT THIS!!! Just hope my coaches know how badly I want it too and help me get to where I can achieve these goals and dreams.
WOW! I didn't expect to write all this when I started today's entry. Guess I just needed to get it out. Now, it's time to move on and work harder so I can achieve these goals and dreams!
35 Burpees (mine were cut in half)
60 Sit Ups
50 Kettle Bell Swings (26lb.)
40 Pull Ups
30 Push Ups
Time 22:26
I was averaging 5-6 Burpees a minute. The coach was saying an average of 10 per minute so I decided I wanted to see where I was. So my next goal is to get to 7 a minute. I really want to keep up and stay on point. I understand why I was cut in half (even though I really wanted to do the entire WOD) but one day I don't want my burpees cut in half. It will take me some time to get to an average of 10 per minute but I really want to work on increasing them if not by only 1 burpee over the next few weeks. I think that's reasonable. I just have to make it a priority along with those squats and box jumps.
Sit ups were fine. I can feel it in my abs though.
Kettle Bell swings tried to do me in. That 26lb. ball might as well weigh a ton. I just have to make sure I use my hips and not just my arms.
Jumping Pull Ups were the same. I tried to make sure I jumped higher but I was so tired.
Push Ups were my thorn in my side tonight. I just didn't feel like I did them right. My leg was hurting and not in a good way when I was coming up on my toes. We weren't allowed to use our knees and that made them harder. And then just trying to use my arms by this point to push myself off the floor was a challenge. I never thought these would give me such a hard time and neither did the coach. He just shook his head at me. Wondering if I throw too many curve balls at him. I don't mean to. I don't think any of the coaches have learned yet what they think will bother me won't and what they don't think will bother me will.
As much a I hate that I didn't do the complete WOD I do understand the scaling back. I just want to get to a point where I'm not scaled back and I'm not doing the WOD an eternity having people hang around longer than they want waiting on me to finish. I do still wonder if the coaches get tired of waiting on me to finish and are ready to go. I really don't care where I finish and finishing last is fine with me. But I know going to the last class it has to be tiresome as we all are ready to go home at some point. DAMN!!! I thought I had worked through this mental block already. Any reason it had to creep back around???
All I can do is strive to do better and improve the exercises and my time. I really do want to get the hang of all this. This morning I was talking to a coworker and she and I were talking about all the things I want to do when I get healthy enough to do them. It really reminded me how badly I want to get healthy and lose this weight and have the strength and stamina to do things like zip lining, drive a racing car around the speedway, take flying lessons and so many more things on my list. Hell, I still want to go to bull riding school! I'm tired of sitting on the sidelines and watching everyone else go out and have fun. I DO WANT THIS!!! Just hope my coaches know how badly I want it too and help me get to where I can achieve these goals and dreams.
WOW! I didn't expect to write all this when I started today's entry. Guess I just needed to get it out. Now, it's time to move on and work harder so I can achieve these goals and dreams!
Monday, July 1, 2013
All 4
While it wasn't my favorite WOD it was a good one.
Nasty Girls
3 Rounds for Time
50 Squats
14 Jumping Pull Ups
14 Dips (using a box)
10 Hang Squat Cleans - 45lbs.
Time: 21:39
Just another reminder at how horrible I am with the squats. I started out trying really hard not to lean forward. That is so hard. And the more the rounds went on the more tired I got. I know I was very slow doing them but I was trying to focus on doing them correctly. It seemed like the more I tried not to plop down on the box the more I did. I don't even know what was up with all that.
I do need to make myself jump higher when doing the jumping pull ups. I did get a good laugh from the coach when he had me try using a band. I couldn't pull myself up. And I have to admit it was a tad bit scary being on the band with no support like a box. What I didn't understand is everyone tells me I'm strong and have upper body strength so why couldn't I pull myself up? Did I not try hard enough? What did I do wrong?
The box dips are okay.
I really tried to concentrate on using my shoulder on the Hang Squat Cleans. One of these days these lifts are going to click and I'm going to nail each and every one of them!
All in all it was a good workout. I hadn't seen this coach in about 2 weeks and as much as I hate to admit it I've missed him fussing at me and making me work and try harder and then still give it some more effort. I like all the coaches. Only thing that would make it better is having all 4 of them there at the same time. They each have different things about their styles of coaching that I like and can get through to me at times. I bet that would be an awesome WOD!
Nasty Girls
3 Rounds for Time
50 Squats
14 Jumping Pull Ups
14 Dips (using a box)
10 Hang Squat Cleans - 45lbs.
Time: 21:39
Just another reminder at how horrible I am with the squats. I started out trying really hard not to lean forward. That is so hard. And the more the rounds went on the more tired I got. I know I was very slow doing them but I was trying to focus on doing them correctly. It seemed like the more I tried not to plop down on the box the more I did. I don't even know what was up with all that.
I do need to make myself jump higher when doing the jumping pull ups. I did get a good laugh from the coach when he had me try using a band. I couldn't pull myself up. And I have to admit it was a tad bit scary being on the band with no support like a box. What I didn't understand is everyone tells me I'm strong and have upper body strength so why couldn't I pull myself up? Did I not try hard enough? What did I do wrong?
The box dips are okay.
I really tried to concentrate on using my shoulder on the Hang Squat Cleans. One of these days these lifts are going to click and I'm going to nail each and every one of them!
All in all it was a good workout. I hadn't seen this coach in about 2 weeks and as much as I hate to admit it I've missed him fussing at me and making me work and try harder and then still give it some more effort. I like all the coaches. Only thing that would make it better is having all 4 of them there at the same time. They each have different things about their styles of coaching that I like and can get through to me at times. I bet that would be an awesome WOD!
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