Quit Worrying and Do It!

I don't want to admit it but I needed to hear what the coach said tonight.  I definitely didn't want to hear it but I listened.  Yeah, I need to just do it and quit worrying.  One day those words will stick in my head and remain there. 

21-15-9

Deadlifts - 105lbs.
Box Jumps - 2 inch (45lb. weight)

Time 7:25

I really have to get over my fear of jumping on that weight.  I could do it at one point and then somehow I lost my confidence again.  Just have to work on those along with the squats. 

So tonight was filled with lots of mini lectures.  Hadn't gotten those in a while.  Guess I was a little overdo for a reality check.  And as much I didn't want to hear what was said I needed to.  I did step on that scale for the coach.   I'm learning to just suck it up and do it now.  Still getting fussed at for not acknowledging my accomplishment of losing weight.  It's so hard having fought this battle for so long.  But it did feel good to at least say I was afraid if I admitted to the weight loss I was scared it would stop.  I was told to drop my carbs by 2 blocks a day.  Wish it had been protein I was cut back on but I knew better - LOL!  So I'm going to now keep track of what I eat and see how well I do. 

Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake made with Skim Milk and strawberries and blueberries.

Lunch
5 chicken wings
Water

Dinner
3 oz. chicken
Salad - lettuce, tomatoes, onions,
Creamy Italian Dressing
Water

Snack
2 glasses of milk
Teaspoon of peanut butter

While lunch wasn't too great I don't think I did terribly bad.  I just have to somehow learn to get thru these 3 days of not wanting to eat.  While all my friends raid their cabinets and fridge, food is the last thing I want to look at much less eat.  My version of PMS really sucks!

So here goes my attempt to quit worrying and just do it!  Easier said than done but I'm going to try!