Struggling and Moving Forward

That was a tough WOD!!!  It looked so simple on the board. 

Annie
50-40-30-20-10
Jump Ropes
Sit Ups

Time 26:11

The warm up just about got the best of me.  Overhead squats are not my thing.  The harder I tried the more that bar went down.  Between 2 coaches I still couldn't get it.  I was struggling.  They both tried so hard for me to get it and that 35lb. bar was too heavy.  I wanted to do at least 1 with the bar but never succeeded.  I remember doing these with another coach and had the same exact problem.  He had to hold to bar at times for me too.  As well as the bar would just fall in my lap. 

Those jump ropes got me.  I was given a choice of 100 attempts or 50 singles and down from there.  I really wanted the 50 singles.  I was concentrating so hard at getting those.  I finally ended up at whatever round I was at moving it to attempts total.  As much as I wanted to fight I was getting exhausted.  The first round took me over 10 minutes if not close to 15.  I gave it my all and for that I'm proud of myself. 

Sit Ups are just that.  Those were like a rest for me. 

I wanted to cry at the end of that WOD!  I was feeling like the harder I fought the worse I was getting.  The coaches were awesome and they really tried to keep me on track.  I felt bad for one of them as she was trying so hard to keep me encouraged and to continue to fight to the end.  She gives me choices and I hate making decisions  - LOL!  And then when I thought I was going to lose it someone else noticed and called me out on it.  She saw me take my hair down and came over to me and moved my hair out of my face and said she knew that trick.  I wanted to smack her and hug her all at the same time.  She knew I was on the verge of losing it and thanks to her I held it together and just that little gesture made me stop and realize I can either take these moments of frustration and continue in a pity party or move forward and continue to improve and do better at each WOD.  I don't think any of them realize they played a part in me starting to realize this.  I know I'll still get frustrated but I need to remember to take the lessons learned from it and move forward.  I think I'm starting to grasp some of this mental stuff now (it's only taken me 4 months) because I'm actually smiling as I write this. 

So what was on the menu today...

Breakfast and Snack
Protein Shake - with skim milk and strawberries

Lunch
Chicken Casear Salad with tomatoes and 6 croutons
Casear dressing
Water

Dinner
Protein Shake with water
1 peach
1/2 banana
9 cashews

Snack
2 cups skim milk
9 cashews