Much Better

I was determined to change my attitude around tonight and focus on what I can do and what else I can learn to do.  The warm up still sucked as far as being hard but I felt good about it especially when I was done.  Now, that indian run tried to take me down mentally but I refused to let it.  I got through it even though I didn't complete it the way it was supposed to be done.  I did complete it by not stopping and just letting everyone else run to the front of the line.  Once the coach said it was okay to just run because he knew I was trying to keep up but my pace just isn't as fast as everyone else I was okay.  And it was nice of him to run beside me.  Little things like that help me stay motivated.  He didn't make me feel bad that I can't keep up, nor did my fellow CF folks because they know I struggle with holding others back.  I didn't give up. 

So we went into the gym to prepare for the WOD.  As I was standing there watching the coach prep a few folks for what they were going to do I thought about how I didn't give into my frustration and I felt good about trying and giving it all I had.  I walked over to the wall where we can write what we want to accomplish and wrote the following:

DON'T LET THE FRUSTRATION GET THE BEST OF ME!!!

To my surprise I didn't know the coach was paying attention and he walked past and started reading what I was writing.  I got a thumbs up and he said he liked that.  It felt good to write it there where I can see it and in the moments I forget and let the frustration take over hopefully I will remember I wrote it and look at it and read it again. 

For time: 12:17

35lb. Back squat, 21 reps
42 ABMAT .Sit-ups
35lb. Back squat, 15 reps
30 ABMAT Sit-ups
35lb. Back squat, 9 reps
18 ABMAT Sit-ups

Tonight's contraption consisted of putting a wall ball on top of 2 weights to make sure I squatted low enough during the back squats.  I believe I touched the ball at least half the time.  I know if I didn't touch the ball I came awfully close.  I felt myself get off balance a few times so I tried readjusting my feet.  I don't know if it was because I was concentrating on staying on my heels and squatting low enough but I gave it all I had. 

I felt good and accomplished when I was done.  I did make everyone laugh during the warm up because when we got to the part where I had to hold my legs 6 inches in the air while someone did the suicide run I was struggling.  I said I discovered that my boobs can't keep me down.  Everyone just laughed.  My boobs are the first to hit the floor in burpees and push ups but they can't help me with this exercise.   It just came out. 

Then there was the chat that the coach and I had and he said he liked coaching me after I've done a WOD coached by the other male coach.  He called the other one the bad cop!  So I guess he's the good cop!  Just made me laugh.