250 Squats

Today's WOD kicked butt!  It was challenging.  I know I started out trying to make sure I didn't lean forward too much.  Squats don't look too hard but when doing them it comes to doing them it's another story.  Those things are so freakin' hard. 

100 Air Squats
9 Rope Progressions
75 Air Squats
6 Rope Progressions
50 Air Squats
3 Rope Progressions
25 Air Squats

Time: 26:48

For the first couple rope progressions I couldn't get up.  I don't know why I was struggling so hard.  I know part of it was mental as I kept imagining that bar coming down on top of me as I pulled on the rope.  I know things are secured in the gym but sometimes that number on the scale just creeps up on me and gets the best of me.  I know it drives my coaches crazy when I ask them if something can hold me but just hearing it can helps me a little bit in my head.  I didn't say anything tonight as I don't want to get accused of having another pity party.  I just don't think they understand what it's like to be told you can't do something because of your weight.  And having heard that for years and years it's hard to get that out of my head.   There, I feel better just writing it here. 

Breakfast
4 half deviled eggs
1 cup milk

Snack
Waffle ice cream cone

Lunch/Dinner
6 oz. Roast
Onions
9 Cashews

Snack
2 Cups Milk
6 Cashews