Something has to Give!

Tonight's warm up was better than the actual WOD!  I would have rather done the warm up 3 times than to do the WOD.  Mainly because the warm up worked me.  I wasn't really fond of the warm up  but I felt like it pushed me and made me do various things.  It had a mixture of running, burpees, air squats, push ups and something called mountain climbers.  I don't remember doing mountain climbers before but I was told I had.  But now, I know I've done them!

The WOD was just front squats with weights.  It was hard but for me there was too much going on it was hard for me to concentrate.  I took myself mentally out of the room and just started talking to myself about the squats.  I never got it.  I believe the coach is beyond trying to help me with them.  He's frustrated, I'm frustrated.  Something has to give!  I have to learn how to squat and not lean forward.  I don't know what is going to be the breaking point for me to get it but it needs to happen now! 

So I got to thinking... I have my contraption in the yard I made and that's good for warming up.  I have some PVC pipe in the garage and I'm going to get it out and hammer it into the ground and then put my stool out there and practice not hitting the PVC pipe while squatting  The coach did that with one of the weight exercises and I think it helped.  So why shouldn't this help?  I'm at least going to try!

At least I didn't break down and cry tonight!  But then with this trainer it's not a good idea.  I think he would have given me a few encouraging words and then made my butt get up and do an exercise or something.  Basically, I'll work you until you can't do anymore.  And I would have gotten up and done whatever was told to me.  Because I do want to get stronger and healthier and conquer all these obstacles and laying on the floor crying will get me nowhere!