Step it Up

I think I felt the pressure that things are fixing to be stepped up a notch or two tonight and it's not going to be pretty.  But it's time.  I'm not pushing myself hard enough to do more and work harder.  I'm giving into the pain and that's not good.  I know it and the coach knows it.  He's not stupid that's for sure. 

Tonight's workout was just deadlifts.  I think I maxed out around 135lbs. 

It was also payback night for mine and one of the other gals PETA protests for bear crawls.  I loved her signs she made for us.  Still hate bear crawls. 

And then there was the after the workout was over I had to do squats.  I'm so scared to go that low.  It's hard to lean on my heels and not lean forward.  I had to hold onto bands and sit on the ball.  I couldn't do it for the fear.  I went from holding one band to holding 2 (one with each hand).  I fell right onto the ball as I knew I would.  I ended up having the coach hold on to my arms to get me to touch the ball with my butt.  He was determined I was going to do it one way or another.  And I'm told I will be continuing to work on these. 

Truth be told... I need to work on squats when I arrive early as long as it doesn't interfere with anyone already doing a WOD.  I need to do this on my own without being told. 

I'm hearing coach's voice get sterner and he's not going to back down.  It's time for me to step up to the plate. 

It's said be careful what you ask for.  I'm asking to be pushed and I'm getting it.  So, it's time to suck it up and do what I need to do.