Nutrition

Nutrition sucks!  I'm sticking to the nutrition plan of 1 regular day and 2 low carb days cycle.  I've done this for 19 days straight.  The first 2 weeks I felt so full and bloated after every meal/snack if not before I was finished.  This past week I've been hungry and even getting to a point that I want to eat before the 3 hours.  I feel like I can't eat enough food this week.  At the same time I'm so tired of eating every 3 hours. 

Then there is that huge mistake I made by stepping on the scale the other day.  I had almost gotten to the point that I accepted the fact that I wouldn't make the goal of 30lbs. lost this month and had made my own goal of 20lbs.  After all, if 30 lbs. in a month was supposed to be doable then 20lbs. in 21 days should be.  Right now, I don't even think I'll even lose 10lbs. this month.  This really sucks!

I've stuck to the nutrition plan for 19 days strict now.  No cheats unless allowed by the 1 meal and even then I didn't go overboard. 

I have no idea what day this weigh in will take place whether it be the end of this week or the first of next week but I am afraid of the disappointment if I don't meet the goals I came up with.  The coach did make a sarcastic remark to me that when I don't make my goals he has to listen to me bitch, grip and complain and be upset.  I am trying to figure out how to change all that.  But when I don't meet my goals that I have agreed to or set up on my own I don't take it too well.  It's just that it's so personal to me and this is something I want to do.  I have tried for years and years and never succeeded.  I want this and I want this for me!   I hold myself accountable when I don't make my goals.  I need to find a way to suck it up and not let my attitude take over if this weigh in doesn't go the way I want it to.  I don't want to break down and cry if I don't make my goals.  But then again this coach doesn't like tears.  But sometimes having to be tough and suck it up is harder for me than this coach can imagine. 

But for now, I'm sticking with the nutrition plan!