Suck Up the Frustration and Get Over It!

“The Horrible Hundred”
25 deadlifts (115#)
25 squat clean and jerks (70#)
25 thrusters (45#)
25 overhead squats (35#)

Time:  18:49 (I think I forgot to look at my time)

I think I did good on the deadlifts and kept a steady pace.  Nothing was said to me so I take that as a good thing. 

Now, those squat clean and jerks messed with my head.  I screwed those up royally.  I know it shouldn't be that hard but I stayed so confused.  I couldn't get my squat at the right time and then trying to jump for the jerk part.  I know the coach was getting irritated at me but I couldn't figure it out.  I kept thinking and trying to get it right.  I was picturing how to do it in my head and nothing clicked for me at any time. 

Thrusters weren't that hard but I still didn't squat low enough but I was trying to remember to push up with my legs to send the bar up so I didn't use my arms as much. 

Overhead squats still suck but I felt like I did okay keeping the bar over my head but then again my squats sucked. 

So overall, my squats sucked tonight.  I should have just stopped and gotten the wall ball and forced myself to use it to make sure I got the squats right.  I just really wanted to get something right tonight.  I am trying not to use my arms so much with the weights but then again I'm not succeeding.  I don't know what to do to make it click in my head to transfer that info to my body.  I know the coach is tired of my frustration and complaining so that I need to change.  I really have to work on not letting my frustration get the best of me as that's when I start complaining and whining about things.  I really want to figure out all this stuff.  Part of me didn't want to go to this WOD but cherry picking isn't good either.  But sometimes I don't want to bother the coaches with my frustration.  Then the stubbornness in me kicks in and I know if I don't go and try I'll never figure it out. 

I just have to suck it up and fight through it all.  I have to learn to take my frustration and turn it into energy and motivation and push through it all.  Tomorrow is a new day so I'm going to do my best and stay positive and hope something clicks and I get something right.  But, I'm not going to give up!