A Little Discouraged but Not Giving Up!!!

That oh so wonderful weigh in was tonight.  I could have gotten away with not doing it but I decided to suck it up and do it.  I knew it was going to show a weight gain by the way my clothes are fitting.  They're not as baggy as they once were.  I was proud of myself for not having a meltdown and just dealing with it and accepting the numbers.  That doesn't mean I'm happy about it and I have no doubts that I'll have my moments.  But I'll keep those moments to myself and just deal with it. 

I know if anyone had the magical answers for me that would make me lose this weight I know they would tell me.  There's just no easy answers or suggestions.  It's all trial and error and figure out what works for my body. 

What I do know is I'm trying.  I know I'm not perfect at this nutrition thing but I do think about my food decisions and what I decide to eat.  I'm not going to lie I would love to give into the emotions right now and just go eat whatever I want but I also know I'm not wanting or willing to give up this fight to be healthy.  So, I won't! 

Very few people understand how important this fight is to me and how badly I want to be healthy.  And thankfully, one of those people is someone I can bounce my feelings off of as she's in this battle to.  So we're both trying out different things and offer advice, suggestions and some sympathy to each other.  We both started cutting back on dairy this week and we're going to see if that helps.  But we keep each other motivated when the other wants to give up.  Sometimes wish we had a few others to join us on this journey so we could have a few more ideas.  There's only so much a coach/trainer can do.  And I know if he had the answers he would share them. 

So as hard as this is to handle gaining 5-6lbs. I don't want to give up.  It does scare me that if gaining weight continues like this I don't know how much I can handle.  I'm scared to see the Dec. 1st weigh in.  But for now, I just want to keep trying and fighting to figure this out and hope I start losing again. 

I WANT TO BE HEALTHY!!!  I have goals to meet and things to do!!!