Totals

CrossFit Totals

Back squat, 1 rep - 95lbs.
Shoulder Press, 1 rep - 70lbs.
Deadlift, 1 rep - 245lbs.

While CF Totals are not my favorite WOD it is fun to see where I'm at as far as the lifts. 

I didn't move up with the shoulder presses.  Any other lift and my legs don't move but this one my legs want to help lift.  Gotta find a way to change that. 

Those back squats kill me.  I have to master those squats and get over my fear of falling.  I'm always afraid that target is going to move on me.  Then to stand on my heels... I was trying but it wasn't working for me. 

I did see stars for the deadlift... well actually I saw the room go blank and spin.  I remember just standing there next to the bar for a minute and then something inside of me said go sit down or I was going to be on the floor.  While I'm glad I did the lift that's the first time I felt the room spin and it made me a little nervous.  Guess I should've said something but I didn't want to start whining - LOL! 

My goal for December is to master those squats so I can get better at so many of those movements.  I'm trying to accept that dropping weights is okay.  Sometimes it's a struggle to remember as everyone wants to move up in weight and I get caught up in that chatter.  I'm happy for those that can go up in weight but I wish there wasn't so much chatter about it.  I'm not competitive but the thought of not being able to lift at least what I lifted prior is really hard to think about.  Sometimes I just want to go in a corner all by myself and do my lifts.  Not that I don't want to be around anyone but I just want to work on the lifts without everyone counting the weights on the bar.  I get psyched out when I know what the weight is on the bar.