Frustration at it's Worst...

“Walsh”

Four rounds for time of: 45:37

• 22 Burpee pull-ups
• 35 pound Back squat, 22 reps
• Walking Lunges - 22

Frustration at it's best has shown up that past few WOD's.  I just want a warm up and WOD with no lifts in it.  I thought I was over the fact that I'm the slowest but when runs are put in as well as bear crawls for the warm up there's something about being last that shuts me down.  I think next time a run is in there for the warm up I'm cutting it in half.  To come back in and see everyone else chilling is so hard mentally.  Then to try to mask those feelings is more than I can do.  Then to throw lifts in there is like adding insult to injury. 

 

I tried using 55lbs. for the back squats but after the first 3 I had to stop and then did 3 more I stopped to rest yet again.  I knew doing 4 rounds of those if I was already exhausted in the first round I would be there forever.  I didn't even ask as I stood there thinking about whether or not I should drop the weights off and just did it.  I think if anything had been said at that point I would've just walked out.  Guess that's when it's good the coach gets just as frustrated at me and ignores me.  Sometimes I guess we need to both stay in our own separate worlds.  Neither one of us can handle my frustration. 

 

I had already decided I wasn't going to use a weight for the walking lunges but that's the last thing I heard out of my coach when he told me not to use one. 

 

I know I was told to take today off from working out or walking but I think I'm going to do it anyway.  I want to see if I can get my time down from 17:13. 

I didn't get that power walk in today that I thought I might.  The more I thought about it the more I thought it's not worth it to go against the plan that I have asked for help with.  My frustration just gets in the way of my thinking sometimes.