No workout for me today, but instead I went to a place that holds my heart and soul and that is my synagogue. Sometimes, G-d just hits us over the head and if we listen we end up where we should and need to be. That was me today as I listened.
Little did I know I was going to find some peace in my struggles with my nutrition and CrossFit in general. As I listened to the rabbi give his sermon I was startled by his statement that we have to become a failure to succeed. The more he talked about his own failures in his life and where it has gotten him I couldn't help but think about how I've been feeling about failing at this whole nutrition plan, the lifts along with being so slow in my workouts.
Feeling like I'm failing at all of this because I'm gaining weight instead of losing now, not grasping how to do all those lifts and being so slow maybe this is the path I'm supposed to take. Go through the hard times in order to succeed and really appreciate this journey in the end. Not sure my coaches would agree with this philosophy but nothing is ever easy that you really want. Sometimes you have to keep fighting for what you want especially when you stay true to your heart and beliefs. This is the 2nd hardest thing I've ever done in my life. The first one wasn't easy and had it's own share of struggles but I hung in there and achieved my goal with success. And I don't regret one minute of it even the hard times.
So, now it's time to really get in here and fight to be healthy and lose this weight, learn those lifts and pick up my speed. I have to remember to not let my frustration get in the way and go in with the attitude that I can and will do the WOD and eat right at every meal/snack. I know it won't happen overnight and not next week but as long as I work hard at it every day in the end once I achieve my goal of being healthy it will all be worth it!
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